50 MVIEMOIR$ OF PERIOD QÌ. tome event or other I cannot now finde I thought I taw an end of all perfebîion, and that nothing was fatisfying without Chrift. I think it has been, that having my friend to part with, added to the weight on me in leaving that country. However it was, the irnpreffion laited with me many days thereafter. On the morrow I went to Edinburgh, and the day following; got home to Dunfe ; which, when I faw it, was terrible unto me, my inclina- tion not being t.òwards that country ; but thither the Lord led me unto the bounds ofmy habitation before appointed. PERIOD VI. Front ,my return unto the Merfe, to my ordination to the holy mi.. ujry at Simprin. EING thus returned home again, I had no occafion to go out of the town above a mile, until four Sabbaths were pal ;. and during that time, in the end of May and beginning of June, the thoughts of my ufeleffnefs were very heavy to me; which put me to beg of God an opportunity to ferve him, whatever pains it thould coft me to accomplith it. Howbeit I was not altogether idle on Lord's days, being employedmolly in Dunfe, and once in Langton. While this lay upon me as the main weight, I found myfelf befet with feveral_ other difficulties. The unacquaintednefs of molt of my friends with religion was grievous, and made their converfation but uncomfortable ; but my'eldel brother Andrew, being a judicious man, and of experience in religion, was often recrechful'to me. I had noheart to vifit the minilers, knowing none of them I could unbofóm myfelf to, fave Mr Colden at Dunfe, and Mr Dyfert at Coldingham. The binding at my brea.l had returned, and I was feized with pains in my back, and in the hinder part of my head, fo that I began to apprehend my time , in the world might not be long ; and on that occafion I found I had force evidences for the better world, and was force- what fubmiffive to the divine difpofal, in the cafe as it appeared. Withal the confideration óf the cafe of the land was heavy on me, and I had a forry profpeót of what might be to come, fo that. I judged them happy, who, having done their work in the vine- yard, were called home, and not made to fee the difhonour done to God amongft us. Wherefore I was defirous to he out of my native country again, and wifhed for a providential relief. But by a letter from a friend, chewing that the bufinefs of Dollar was like to fucceed, I found that I behoved to continueyet a while where I was on the account thereof. It now lay heavy on my fpirit at feveral times, as above no- ticed, that I was cal out ofa corner, in which the Lord was pleafed to make ufe of me, and own me withTome iuccefs in his work, into another corner where I had nothing to do. This oc-
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