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PART

I.

Reverend,

Mr,

Richard

Baxter.

3

2g

'.

Heretofore I placed

much of my Religion

in tenderngfs

of

heart, and

grie-

ving for

fin,

and penitential tears; and

Iefs

of

ir, in the love

of

God,

and

ttudying

his love and goodnefs,

and

in

his

joyful'praifes, than

now

I

do. Then

I

was

little

fenfible

of

the

greatnets

and

excellency

of

love

and Praife

;

though I

coldly fpake

the

fame words in its

commendations,

as now I

do

:

And now

1

am

lets

troubled

for want

ofgrief

and

tears

(though I more

value

humility,

and

refufe

not

needful

Humiliation):

But my

Confcience.

now looketh at

Love

and

Delight

in God,

and

praifing

him,

as

the

top

of

all

my

Religious Duties, for

which

it

is

that

I

Value

and

ufe

the

refl.

8.

My Judgment

is

much more for frequent and

ferioirs

Meditation on the

hea-

venly

Blefi-ednefs,

than it

was

heretofore in my younger-

days.

I

then thought

that a

Sermon of the Attributes

of God,

and the Joys

of

Heaven

were

not the

moft

excellent

;

and

was

wont to

fay,

Every

body

knowetb

Ma, that

God is

great and

good,

and that

Heaven

is

a

bljed

place

;

Ì

had rather

bear how I may

attain

it. Andno-

thing

pleafed me

fo

well

as

the Doctrine

of

Regeneration,

and the Marks

of

Since-

rity ¡

which

was becaufe it

was

fuitable

to me

in that ftate

:

but now I had

rather

read,

hear or meditate, on God and Heaven, than on any other Subject: for

Ì

perceive

that it

is

the Objehi

that altereth and

elevateththe

Mind; which

will

he

fuch

as

that

is,

which it molt frequently feedeth on

:

And

that

it

is

not

only

ufe-

ful

to our

cemfart,

to

be

much

in Heaven in

our

believing thoughts

;

but

that

it

malt

animate

all

our

other

Duties, and fortifie

us

againft every

Temptation

and

Sin;

and that the

LOW

of

the

end

is

it that

is

the

poife

or

fisting

,

which fetteth every

Wheel

a

going, and

mutt

put

us

on

to

all

the

means.:

And that a Man

is

no

more

a Chriftian indeed

than

he

is Heavenly.

9.

I

was

once wont

to

meditate molt on my own

heart,

and to dwell

all

at

borne, and look

little higher

:

I was Rill

poring either on my

Sins

or Wants,

or

examining my Sincerity

; but

now, though

I

am greatly convinced

of

the need

of

Heart

-

acquaintance

and

imployment, yet

I

fee

moreneed

of

a

higher work

;

and

that

I

fhould look often upon

Chritt,

and

God, and Heaven,, than upon my own

Heart. At

borne

I

can

find

Diftempersto trouble me, and

fome Evidences

of

my

Peace:

but

it

is

above

that

I

mull

find

matter

of

Delight

and-

'oy,

and

Love

and

Peace

it

fell Therefore

I.

would have

one

thought

at

home

upon

my

felf

and

fins,

and

many

thoughts above

upon the high and

amiable and beatifying Ob;eets.

so. Heretofore

I

knew much left

than now

;

and yet

was

not half

fo

much ac-

quaintedwith myIgnorance:

I

had a

great delight in the daily new

Difcoveries

which I made, and of the Light which

fhined

in upon

me

(

like

a

Man that

cometh into

a Country where he never

was before

):

But

I

little

knew either

how

imperfeElly

I

understood thofe very Points, whofe difcovery fo much delighted me,

nor

how much might

be faid

againli

them;

nor how many

things

I was

yet a

!hanger

to:

But

now I

find

far greater Darknefs

upon

all things,

and perceive haw

verylittle

it

is

that

we

know in comparifon

of

thatwhich

we

are ignorant

of;

and

and have

fir

meaner thoughts

of

my own1Jnderftanding, though I

mat

needs

know that it

is

better furnilhed than

it

was

then.

se.

Accordingly

I

had

then

a far

higher opinion

of

Learned Pertons and

Books,

thanI

have

now;

for what

I

wanted

my

fell,

I thought

every Reverend Divine

had attained, and

was

familiarly acquainted

with

:

And what

Books I

understood

not

by reafon

of

the ftrangenefs

of the Terms or Matter, I the

more

admired

and

thought that

others

undersood their

worth.

But

now Experience hath

con-

Brained

me

againit

my

will

to

know,

that

Reverend

Learned Men are

impeded

,

and

know

but little

as

well

as

I

; efpecially thofe

that think

themfelves

the wifeft

t

And

the better

I

am acquainted

with them, the more

I

perceive

that we are

all

yet

in the dark

:

And the more I am acquainted

with

holy

Men, that

are

all

for

Heaven,

and pretend

not

much

to

Subeilties,

the more

I

value

and honour them.

Andwhen

I

have Budied hard

to underhand

fome abBrufe

admired

Book ,

(as

De

ScientiaDei, De Providentid circa malum,

de Decretesy de

Predetermination,

de

Liberta-

te

Creatures,

&c.)

I

have but

attained the Knowledge

of

Humane Imperfe

&ion,

and to

fee

that

the Author

is

but

a

Man

as

well

as

I.

tz.

And at

firft

I

took more

upon my

Author's

Credit, than now I

can

do

:

And when

an

Author

was

highlycommended to me by others,

or

pleafed

me

in

fome parr,

I

was

ready to entertain the whole; whereas

now

I

take

and

leave

in

the

fame

Author, and'diífent in fome things from him

that

I

like belt,-

as

well

as

from

others.