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PART

I.

Reverend

Mr.

Richard

Baxter.

fèornfully

of

others as

Puritans whom I never knew,

I

was

at

firft

apt to

be-

lieve all

the

Lies

and Slanders wherewith

they

loaded them

:

But when I

heard my

own Father

fo

reproached, and

perceived

the Drunkards were the

forwardelt

in the reproach,

I

perceived

that it

was

mere Malice

:

For my

Fa-

thee

never

Coupled

Common

-

Prayer or Ceremonies, nor

fpake againit Bllhops,

nor

ever

fo

'much

as

prayed but

by a Book

or Form,

being

not

ever

acquainted

then with any that

did

otherwife:

But

only

for

reading Scripture when

the

refit

were Dancing on the

Lords Day, and

forpraying (

by a

Form

out.

of

the end

òf

the CommomPrayer Book) in

his Houfe,

and

for

reproving

Diunkardsand

Swear-

ers,

and

for

talking

fometimes a few words of

Scripture and the Life to come, he

was reviled

commonly by the Name

of

Puritan,

Precifian

and

Hypocrite:

and

fo

were

the Godly Conformable Miniltersthat

lived

anywhere in the

Country near

us,

not

only by

our Neighbours,

but by

the common

talk

of

the

Vulgar Rabble

of

all

a-

bout

us. By this

Experience

I

was fully

convinc'd

that

Godly People were.the beP,

and thofe that

defpifed

them and

lived in Sinand Pleafure

,

were

a

malignant un-

happy

fort

of

People

:,

and thiskept me

out

of

their

Company,

except now and

then when the

Love

of

Sports

and Play enticed

me.

i

2.

The

chiefeft help

that

I

had for

all

my

Learning

in

the Country

Schools,

was

with Mr.

Cohn Owen

School-mafter at the Free

-

School

at

Wroxercr,

to whom I

went

next, who

lived

in

Sir Richard Newport's

Houfe

( afterward Lord

Newport)

at

Evan,

and taught School

at

that ancient

Uriconivm,

(where

the

Ruins

and

old

Coin

confirm thofe

Hiltories, which make

it

an ancient City

in

the Romans Timer).

The

prefent

Lord

Newport

and his Brother were

then my

School. fellows, in a

lower

Form,

and

Dr.

Richard

elllef/ree

now Dr.

of

the

Chair

in

Oxford,

Canon of

Cbre's.Cburcb, and

Provolt of

Eaton-

Colledge :

of

whom I remember

that

when my

Malter fet him up

into

the

lower end of the higheftForm, where I

had long been

Chief,

I

took it

fo

ill, that

I

talkt

of

leaving

the

School: whereupon my

Mailer

gravely,

but

very

tenderly, rebuked my pride,

and gave me

for my

Theme,

Ne

furor ultra

crepidam.

4

;.

About

that

time it

pleafed

God

of

his

wonderful Mercy

to

open my Eyes

with

a clearer

infight

into the Concerns and

Cafe of my

own

Soul,

and to touch

my heart wich a livelier feeling

of

things Spiritual

than ever

I

had found before

:

And it

was by

the

means

and in

the orderfollowing;

ftirring up my Confcience

more

againft me, by

robbing

an

Orchard

or

two with

rude

Boys,

than it

was

be-

fore

:

And being under

Come

more Convi&ion for my

Sin ,

a

poor Day-Labourer

in the

Town (he that

I

before

-

mentioned

that

was

wont to read in the Church for

the

old

Parfon) had an

old

torn Book which

he

lent my Father

, which

was

cal-

led

Bunny's

Reflation,

(being written by

Parfon's

the Jefuir, and

correrBed

by

Edm,

Bunny).

I

had before heard fumeSermons,

and read

a

good Book

or two, which

made

use

more love

and honour

Godlinefs in

the

General;

but

I

had

never

felt

a-

ny

otherchange

by

them

on

my

heart. Whether

it

were that

till

now

I

came not

to that maturity

of

Nature, which made

me

capable of difcerning

;

or whether

it

were that

this was

God's appointed time, or both together,I

had no lively fight

and

fenfe

of

what

I

read till now.

And in the reading of

this Book

(when

I

was

about

Fifteen

years

of

Age)

it

pleated

God to

awaken

my Soul, and fhew

me the folly

of

Sinning, and

the

mifery

of

the Wicked, and the unexpreffible weight

of

things

Eternal, and the necef

city

of

refolving

on

a

Holy

Life,

more than I

was ever ac-

quainted with

before.

The

fame things

which

I

knew before came now

in

another

manner, with Light, and Senf, and

Serioufnefs

to my

Heart.

This

caft me

firft

into

fears

of

my

Condition

;

and

chore

drove me to Sorrow

and Confefiion and

Prayer,

and

fo

to

fome refolution

for-another kind of

Life

t

And many

a-clay

I

went with

a

throbbing

Confcience, and

Caw

that I

had

other

Matters to mind, and another Work to do in the World, than ever I had

minded

well before.

Yet whether

Gncere

Converfion began

now,

or

before,

or

after,

I

was

never

able

to this

day to know

:

for

I

had

before had fome Love

to the Things and People

which

were good, and

a reftraine

from other

Sins

except thofe

forementioned;

and

fo

much from thofe that

I

feldom

committed moll

of

them, and when

I

did,

it

was

with

great

relultancy. Andboth now and

formerly

I

knew that

Chrift

was

the only Mediator

by

whom we muff have Pardon, Jultification, and Life

:

But

even

at that

time,

I

had little lively fenfe

of

the

Love

of

God in

Chrifb to the

World or

me,

nor

of

my

fpecial

need

of

him

!

for

Parfons

and

all

Papifts almoft are

too lhort-

upon

this Subject.

And aboutthat time

it pleafed

God that

a

poor Pedlar came to the Door

that

B

2

had