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4

2heLIEE

ofthe

LIB.I,

had

Ballads

and

fame good

Books

:

And my Father

bought

of

him

Dr.

Sibb's

brui-

fed

Reed.

This

alto

I

read, and found

it fuited

to my ftate,and feafonably tent

which

opened .more

the

Love

of

God

to me, and

gave

me

a

livelier

apprehenfion

of

the Myftery

of

Redemption

,

and how much I

was beholden

to

Jelus

Chrift.

All

this

while neither my Father

nor

1

had any Acquaintance

or Familiarity

with

any

that

had any

Underftanding in

Matters

of

Religion

,

nor ever

heard

a-

ny pray

ex tempore

s

But

my Prayers were

the

ConfellIon

in

the

Common-

Prayer Book;

and fometime one of Mr.

Bradford's Prayers,

(in

a Book called his

Prayers

and

Me-

.

dilations) and

fometime

a

Prayer

out

of

another

Prayer

-Book which we had.

After this we had

a

Servant that had

a

little Piece

of

Mr.

Perkins's

Works

(of

Re-

pentance,

and

the right Art of

Living

and Dying well ,

and

the Government of,

the

Tongue)

:

And the reading

of

that did further inform me, and confirm

me.

And

thus

(without any

means

but Books)

was

God pleated to

refolve

me

for

himfelf.

§

4.

When

1

was

ready for the

Univerfity, my Mafìer drew me into another

way

which kept

me

thence, where were

my

vehement

deliires.

He

had a

Friend

at

Ludlow,

Chaplain to the Council there,

called

Mr.

Richard Wckftead

;

whofe

Place having allowance from the

King ( who maintaineth the

Houfe

)

for

one ro

attend him,he

told my

Matter that he

was

purpofed

to havea

Scholar

fit

for

the

1.-

niverfrty

;

and

having but one, would be better

to him than

any

Tutor

in the

Uni-

verfrty

could

be

:

whereupon my Mafter perfwaded me to accept the offer,and told

me

it would be

better than theUnrverfrty to

me

:

I

believed

him

as

knowing no

bet-

ter my felf; and

it fuited

well-with

my

Parents minds,who were willing

to

have

me

as

near to them

as

poll.ible

(having no Children but

my felf): And fo

Ileft

my

School

-

matter

for

a fuppofed

Tutor

:

But

when

I

had

tried him

I

found my felf

deceived

; his

bulinefs was

to

pleafe the

Great Ones,

and leek

Preferment in the

World

;

and to

that

end found it neceffary fometimcs

to

give

the Puritans

a flirt ;

and call them unlearned, and

fpeak

much for Learning, being but

a Superficial

Scholar

of

himfelf:

He

never read to me,

nor

ufed any favoury Difcourfe

of

-God-

linefs ; only he loved

me, andallowed me

Books

and

Time

enough

t

that

as

I had

no

confiderable helps from him in my Studies,fò had

I

no

confiderable hinderance.

And though the Houle

was

great (there

being

four Judges, the King's

Attorney,

the Secretary, the Clerk

of

the Fines, with

all

their

Servants, and

all

the

Lord Pre

-

fdent's

Servants,

and many more) and though the

Town

was

full

of

Temptations,

through the multitude of

Perfons, (Counfellors,

Attorne)s,

Officers, and

Clerks)

and much

given to tipling and excels, it pleated

God not only

to

keep me from.

them, but

allo

to give me one intimate Companion,

who

was

the greateft

help

to

my

Serioufnefs in

Religion, that

ever

I had

before,

and

was a

daily

Watchman over

my Soul! We walk'd together, we read together, we prayed together, and when

we could we

lay

together

:

And having been brought

out

of

great Dithers

to Pro

-

fperity, and

his

Affeelions being fervent,

though

his

Knowledge

not great,

he

would

be always

flirting

me up to Zeal and Diligence, and even in the

Night

would

rife

up to Prayer and

Thanklgiving to God,

and wonder

that I

could

Beep

fo,

that the

thoughts

of

God's Mercy

did

not

make me alto to do

as

he did

!

He

was

unwearied in reading

all

fèrious Pradtical Books

of

Divinity

;

efpecially

Per-

kins, Bolton,

Dr.

Prefton, Elton,

Dr.

Taylor, Wbately,

Harris,

&c. He

was

the

frft

that

ever

I

heard pray Ex

tempere

(out of the Pulpit) and that

caught

me

fo

to pray

:

And

his

Charity

and Liberality was equal

to

his

Zeal

;,fo

that God

made him a

great means

of

my

good, who had more knowledge than he, hut

a colder

heart.

Yet

before we

had been

Two

years

acquainted,

he fell

once and

a fecond

time

by the power

of

Temptation

into

a

degree

of

Drunkennefs, which

fo

terrified

him upon the

review (efpecially after

the

fecond

time) that

he was

near

ro

De-

fpair;

and went to good Minifters

with

fad

Confeflions: And when I had

left

the

Hour; and

his

Company,

he fell

into it againand

again

fo

oft,

that

at lait

his

Con

-

fetence could have

no Relief or Eafe

but

in changing

his

Judgment,

and difown-

ing the

Teachers and

DoEtrines

which

had

reftrained

him.

And he did

it

on this

manner

:

One of

his

Superiours,

on whom

he had dependance, was

a

man

of

great Sobriety

and

Temperance,

and

of

much Devotion

in his

way ; but very zea-

lous

againft the Nonconformifts, ordinarily talking moS bitterly againS

them, and

reading

almoft only fuch

Books

as

encouraged him

in

this way

:

By converfe

with

this Man, my Friend was

firm

drawn to

abate

his

Charity to

Nonconformifts

;

and then to think and fpeak reproachfully

of

them ; and

next that

to diflikeall thole

that

came near them,and to

fay

that

fuch

as Bolton

were too

revere,

and enough to

make men mad

:

And the

laf;i

heard

of

him

was,

that

he was

grown

a

Fudler,

and Railer at ftridt men.

But

whether God

recovered

him,

or what

became

of

him I cannot

tell.

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