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PART

I.

Reverend

Mr.

Richard Barter.

§

s.

From

Ludlow

Caftle, after a yearand half,I returned

fo

my Father's 1lóufe,

and

by

that time my old

School

-

matter, Mr. John

Owen,

was lick

of

a

Confump-

tion

(

which

washis

Death

:) and theLord

Newport

delired me

to teach

that

School

till he either recovered

or

died, (refolving to take

his

Brother

after him

if

he

died):

which

I did

about

a

quarter

of

a

year,

or

more.

After that old Mr.

Francis Garbert

(

the

faithful, learned

Miniffer at

Wroxeter)

for

about

a

Month

read

Logick

to

me,

and provoked me toa clofer Courfe

of

Study

;

which yet

was

greatly

interrupted by my bodily

weaknefs, and

the

troubled Con-

dition

of

my

Soul.

For being in expe&ation

of

Death,

by a

violent Cough, with

Spitting

of

Blood,

&c.

of

two

years

continuance,

fuppofed

to

be a

deep degree

of

a

Confumption, I

was

yet

more awakened

to

beferious, and folicitous about

my

Soul's

everlaBing State: And

I

came

fo

Ibort

of

that

fenfe

and

ferioufnefs,

which a

Matter

of

filch

infinite weight required,

that

I

was

in

many years doubt

of

my

Sin-

cerity, and thought

I

had no Spiritual Life

at

all.

I

wondred at thefenllefs hard.

nefs

of

my

heart, that could think and

talk

of

Sin

and Hell, and Chrift and Grace,

ofGod

and Heaven, with

no

more

feeling

:

I

cried

out

from

day to day

to God

for Grace againtt

this

fenflefs

DeadneS:

I

called

my felf the

molt

bard

hearted

Sinner,

that

couldfeel

nothing

of

all

that

I

knew and talks

of

:

I

was

not then

fen-

fible

of the incomparable Excellency

of

Holy

Love,

and

Delight

in

God,

nor

much

imployed

in

Thankfgiving and Praife

:

But all

my Groans werefor more

Contrition,

and

a

broken

Heart,

and I prayed molt for

Tear,.

and

Tenderneß...

And

thus

I complained

for

many Yearsto God and Man

,

and between the Ex-

pe&ations

of Death, and

the Doubts

of

my

ownSincerity in Grace, I

was kept

in

fome more care

of

my Salvation,

than

my

Nature (too ftupid and too

far from Me-

lancholy)

was

eafily

brought to.

At

this

time

I

remember, the reading

of

Mr.

Exek.

Culverwell's

Treatife

of

Faith

did me much good,

and

many

other

excellent Books,were made my

Teachers

and

Comforters:

And the

ufe

that God

made

of

Books,

above Minifters,

to

the

benefit

ofmy

Soul,

made me fomewhat exceffrvely

in

love

with

good

Books ; fo

that I

thought

I

had never

enow, but

fcrap'd

up

as

great

a

Treafure

of

them

as

I

could.

Thus

was

I

long keptwith the

Calls

of approaching Death

at one

Ear, and the

Quellionings

of

a

doubtful

Confcience at the other

!

and

finch

then

I

have found

that

this

method of

God's

was

very

wife,

and no other

was fo like

to

have

tended

to

my good.

Theft

Benefits

of

it

I

fenfibly

perceived.

r.

It

made mevile and loathfome

to

my

felf,

and made Pride one of the hate-

fuller/

Sins

in

theWorld

to

me

!

I

thought

of

my"felf

as

I

now think

of

a deiefta-

ble Sinner, and

my

Enemy, that

is,

with a

Love

of

Benevolence,

willing

them

well,

but with little Love

of

Complacency at

all

:

And

the long

continuance

of

it,

tend-

ed

the more

effe

&ually

to

a

habit.

2.

It

much reltrained me from

that

fportful Levity and Vanity

which my

Na-

ture and

Youthfulnefs

did much incline me to, and

caufed

me to meet Temptations

to

Senfpality

with the

greateft fear, and made them

lefs

effe&ual

againf

me.

;.

It

made

the Do&rine of Redemption the

more favoury to me, and my

thoughts

of

Chrift to be more

ferious

and regardful, than before they were. I re-

memberin the beginning how favoury to my reading

was

Mr.

Perkins's

lion

Trea,

tire

of

the

Right

Knowledge

ofChrill

crucified,

and

his Expofrion of

the

Creed; because

they taught me how to

live by

Faithon

Chriff.

4.

It

made the World

feemlip

me

as a

Carkafs

that

had

neither Life nor Loveli-

nefs

:

And it defiroyed

rhofe tSmbitious delires

after

Literate Fame,

which

was

the

Sin

of

my Childhood

!

I

had a defire before to have

attained the

higher

Academi-

cal Degreesand

Reputation

of

Learning, and to

have

cholenout my

Studies

accord-

ingly

;

but Sickneßand

Solicitoufneßfor

my doubting

Soul

did

flame away

all thefe

Thoughts

as

Fooleries and Childrens Plays.

s.

It

fet me

upon that Method

of

my

Studies,

which

fine

then I

have found

the

benefit of,

though at the time

1

was

not

fatisfied

with my

felf.

It

caufed

me

frrß to

Peek

God's Kingdom and

his

Righteoufnefs, and

moll

to

mind the

One thing

needful

;

and to

determine

firlt

of

my

Ultimate End

;

by which

I

was

engaged

to

choofe

outand profecute

all

other

Studies,

but

as

meant to that end

:

There-

fore Divinity was

not

only carried

on with the reit

of

my

Studies

with an equal

hand,

but always had

the

flrli

and

chiefeft place

!

And

it

caufed

me

to

ffudy

Pra5lical-

Divinity

firff, in

the moli Prallical

Books,

in

a

Praétical

Order; doing all purpofely

for the informing and reforming

of

my

own

Soul.

So

that I

had

read

a

multitude

of our

Englifh Pra &icalTreatifes, before Ihad ever

readany other

Bodies

of

Divinity, than Urine and

Amegus,

or two

or three more.

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