3 3 4 DireElionsforbetting and keeping have fuch a baclçwardnefs and undïfpofedneft to `Duty, of pecia!lyferret `I' rayer, Meditation,and felf-examina- tion, and reproving and exhorting fanner!, that d am fain toforce my felfto it againfl racy will. It it noDe- light that Ifind in there Duties that brings me to them, but only I fife violence with myPelf, and am fain to pull my /elf down on my knees, becaufe r knot it is a Duty, and I cannot befavedwithout it : but I am no fooner on my knee:, but Ihave a motion to rife , or befhart9 and ans wearyofit, andfind nogreat mirs ofduty When I ado omit it.. ANSWER. THis (hews that your foul is tick when your meat goes fo much againtt your ftomack that you are fain to force it down : And ficknefs may well carafe you to complain to God and man. But what's this to Deadnefs I The Dead cannot force down their meat, nor digeft it at all. It feems by this that you are fant`tified but in a lowDegree, and your Corruption remains in fame ftrength; and let that be your forrow,and the overcoming ofit be your great- el care and bufin,fs : But fhodld you therefore fay that you are unfanetified? It feem that you haveBill the fldti al;a ;nft the Spirit,that you cannot do the Goo44you would : when you would pray with Deligh¡ andunweariednefs, the flefh draws back and the Deívil is hinck ring you. And is it not fo in too great a me rsfi,re with the heft on earth ? Remember what CI-HA faid to his own \poflles , when they fhould
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