comfortable walking with God. 3 f 5 ..11.10.=....9 egnmemses... againft mine owne finnes, paffionate diftempers, rebellious rifings,themalice of Satan,the allurements of the world,cor- ruptions ofthe times, the cruelties of firange injeftions and horrible temptations, my many and often faylings, frailties, and imperfeaions. Vpon due and impartiall examination, I have happily ridde mine hands of all that con fuming pelfe, which any way crept intomine enate,by wicked and wrong- full meanes in the dayes ofmine iniquity. (For fcarce any man in the hateof nature, but (leaks fan/ in one kind or other.) I have cleared andendeavoured to adorne my profeffion, as well with workes of iullice, mercy, and truth,asby theout- wardaas of piety HereinIhave exercifidroyfelt , to have Ads 24. ic. alma, es agood conrCience,voyde of offence, towardGodand top vard roan, &c. And in all thefe paffages and particulars, both of my con verfion and converfation, had I onely repofed upon the out- ward aa, and refted in the worke wrought, I had utterly fainted, andbeene quite undone in the day of advefity. But truth of heart was the touchflone, and fincerity is the finew of all my affurance and comfort this way. I have beene, I confeffe, yet full fore againft my will, and the hearty defire of my foule, haunted, and hindred in paf- fing thorow thepangs of my new birth, and managing my Chriftianbufineffes ; with the violent intrufion, and infirm- tingmixture of many imperfeetions, diffractions, temptati- ons, wants, weakeneffes, infirmities, and failings ; privy pride, fecret hypocrifie;difirults,and deadneffeof mine owne naughty heart. I wasmuch wanting, by reafon of the na- turall rebellionof mine hardheart, to thofe workingsofthe Law and Gofpel mentioned before. I have come fa rre fhort of that forrow for finne,which I defired,andof that heaven- ly-mindedneffe in performing holy duties which was re quired. But then I have from time to time grieved, and groaned under thole too many frailties anddefeefs, as under an heavy burthen. I have many a time bitterly bewailed. them in fecret : they have made mee walke more humbly before my God, and towards men. I have continually com- plained
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