Part 1. Cap. 3· '. .Ajflicted Confci~nfet., things of this life,.~of~lly ;woupd.e~ his ~9;pfc~sl\ce.by . 'that mfameUS abJUratlOll of the Ole1fed trp.th, ' w&tch i-Ie formerly prokffed, became· afpetlade of fuch fpirituall mi~ty and woe to the whole world, that there is not any thing left unto the memory ofman m, ere remarkable. • · · ·· · · Vpon the very firO: revife of his recantation, and. ierious confideration in cold bloud what he had done, he~ acknow!edged himfelfe l;literly undc:>ne and forever. His fpirit 1Uddenly fln_itten with the dreadftdl fcnfe of divine w.tath for his Ap_ofrafi~,abd fp_lit in pieces, as it were, with fo grievonsa· bruife,· fa,~nted ~ar':" fully, fail'd hjln quite, and fellafrinder in ,his. breafi: ,li~e drops ot water. Hi~are fome rufull expreffions of hts deiperate fiate, from his.owne mouth : Oh, tbrtt:I w'r' gone from hqu;e, .that fom.e . bddy would(let Oft( thu weary Soule! _I fell )OH t~ere ~ao 1,c't!er, fucf tijll!,onfler a: J am~ n,e'tler w.u man; a/we a ;fP~llacle of futh exceedrng mifery.-----1 now feele Gods _hetwie ·wrath· that 6urnet l ikt the _tor?nents of hell within me, andajfiith my foule with pangs unutterable. .Verily dcjpertition:. is Hc1l it Jelfe.---:---The gna-wing 'Wo meJ of :unquenchtible.:jire, hon~our; confufton, · and_ which u.worjJ of a/f., defpenatton it fe!fe, contin~tally torturN mce. eAnd now Lt·ount my prefent eftatt worfe, than ·if mJ foulc Jeparated frommy - _6ody were ·with Iud.u, a.ndtherefore I defire rather to bee ·there, than· thm to liv.e in my body.-·-;----T.h"'tr_uthi.s, never had morta!l ma?l fucf; cxperi'ence.of qods anger and hatred againft him tU J have,--..----If I couldconceive but t~e leaft JP ark§ of hope z'n my heart t;f a hetter ftate hereafter, J Woald not refufo tp endure the moft heav; ·. Wrath of the <~reat God,. yea for ·'J.OJo;yearu, 'fo that at length I m~l[,ht attaine out of mifery.-------Hee profef[ed t>hat his panl~ were [uch, .u thJtt the damned wights in Hell indur:e not the lik§ mifor:."' : . Thc-tt his Jfate l'\7.u worfe than tha~ 'of Cain aNd JH!iu, 11nd therefore defird to cl.ye.------;;;.---0 tfHtt (jod wo~tldlet loofe his hand B :2 fr~m 19 ), ,: '•r 1 : ' '~}! •. >
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