comfortable walking wi&h God. againfl mine ownef tines, páflìonate diflempers, "rebe Mons rhings,themalice ofSatan,tre'allurements of the world, car ruptions of the times, the cruelties of firange inje&ions and horrible temptations, my many and often failings, frailties, and imperfe&ions. Upon dueand impartial) examination, I have happily ridde mine hands of all that confuming pelfe which any waycrept into mineeflate, by wicked and wrong- full meanes in thedayes ofmine iniquitie.(For fcarce any man in the flare ofnature, but deales falfly in one kinde or other.) I have defiredand endeavoured to adorne my profeflìon, as well with workes ofjufUice, mercy; and trtath,as the out- wardsa&s of pietie : Herein 'have exercifed rr< ei e, to have I4, 2 4. 72, aixvayea a good eonfcience, void of offence, toward God arad to- wardman, &c. And in all thefepaffages andparticulars, both ofmy cone verfion and converfation, had I onely repofedupon theout- ward a&, and refled in the worke wrought, I had Utterly fainted, and beene quite undone in the day of adverfitie. But truth ofheart was the touchflone, and finceritie is the finew ofall my affurance and comfort this way. . Ihave beene, I confeffe, yetfull fore agaárnli my will, and thehearty defireof my foule haunted, .andhindred in"paf- fing thorow the pangs of mynew birth, and managing my Chriflian bufineffes; with the violent intrufion and infnui- ting mixture ofmany imperfe&ions, difirafìions, temptati- ons, wants, weakeneffes, infirmities, and faylings; privie pride, fecret hypocrifìe,diflru(is,and deadnefeofmine ovine naughtie heart. I was much wanting, by reafon of thena- turali rebellion of mine hardheart, to thofe workingsof the Lawand Gofpell mentioned before. I have come farre fhort ofthatfurrow for firme, which I defired, and ofthat heaven- ly-mindedneffe in performing holy duties which was re- quired. But then I have from time to time grieved, asiri groaned under thofe toomany frailties and defe&s, as under an heavie burthen. I have many a time bitterly bewailed them in fecret : they have made mee walke more humbly before my God,and towards men. I have continually com- plained
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