ITS MEMOIRS or PERIOD v1 ;. filled withjoy in, the Lord, and my heart was glad, while I had difcoveries òf Chrift made to my foul, and was helped to fee his fufficiency, and to believe. So that myfoul was filled with praifes and admiration of the Lord's kindnefs to poor me at thisjunóture, notwithftanding my woful backflidings from him before. O the doétrine of the "gof'pel, and revelationof Chrift, is Tweet to my foul. I have had felt ftrength againft corruption this day. July 13. Saturday. This day I was to gó to Kelfo, from whence I was to go ftraight to,Culrofs. And I found the Lord was with me, and helped me to wreak with him for his pretence to my marriage, and to-morrow's work. The teftimony of my conf'cience witneffing to me, that I had acknowledged God in this my way, was a fweet help to me, to believe my Reps fhould be directed by him. I found a more than ordinary concern on my heart for my charge, and their cafe touched myheart very nearly. I came away in the ftrength of the Lord ; and the ferenity of my mind that I enjoyed at this time was fweet to rue. July 14. This morning when.I awoke, I was with God, and my foul had confidence in the Lord ; yet ere I went to the church, finite wandering thoughts ruffled in and marred my cafe ; fo that in the firft prayer I was much defected, and very faint both in body and mind. But being thus emptied of myfelf,' the Lord filled my fails in all the other parts of the day's work. And be- twixt lermons I had filch felt ftrength from the Lord, that I ad- mired and rejoiced in his love ; for he 'really fet me on my high places ; and his love at this juntrre was wondrous in my eyes. So in his ftrength I went awayagain, and we fung Pfal. cxxxviii. 5. and downwards. I fung it with an uplifted heart, and light from the Lord : and for the 5th verfe, " ° Yea in the righteous ways of God," &c. though I faw little in it when I gave out the pfalrn, yet when fung, O how fweet, confirming, and foul- ftrengthening was it to me, even with refpe& tò my.bufinefs! for I few it was the way of commanded duty. For the whole of it, I thought, if I had been at the penning of that part of that pfalm which we fling, for my prefent cafe, I would not have altered one word of it. I preached and prayed' with great light and life from the Lord. At night my heart was glad, and my glory re- joiced to (peak of Chrift. And thus was it with me when honeft J. L. cage in to me, with whom I converted with, an uplifted heart.. When we were 'going to part, I told him of what was before me; but he was an instrument of difcouragement to me, by means'of my own corruption. The good man faid particular- ly, If you acknowledge God in your ways, &c. This teemed to me raid with fuch an air of jealoufy, that my proud heart mur- muredat it ; which was after matter of Mourning to me. There- after I found my ftrength abated ; but I gave myfelf to prayer, and wreftling with God for his' prefence to go with me. As I was filling a pipe, and my heart was difcouraged in that, I found not God with me as before, I gave a,glance to the Bible lying
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