PERIOD lx. reflellitig on how many years, eí}>ecially fince I was a minder, I have (pent in preaching of the gofpel,it.was moll hitter to me, to The how much time was gone, and how little I had done for God. From the Saturday after fermons, I had been in earneft for awful impreffrons of God on my f} irit, and I got them; par- ticularly on the Monday, while Mr Gabriel Wilton preached, my foul, under itnpre(iions of the :majefly and greatneff of.God,.was melted within me. While he preached on Pfái. cxvi. 9. " I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living," every ftepof dutyhe named, gave me a new conviétion. So that when I be- gan to fpeak after him, my foul was fo filled with the fence of the majefty of God, and of my own vilenefs, wherewith my heart was lb fwollen, that I had much ado in prayer to fpeak plain, and not to break the words. But in the fermon, 1 had much tugging and drawing with my heart to keep it right, and wanted not ups and downs in it, forhetimes out of cafe, and fornetimes helped, but for the nioft part unfátisfying to myfelf. After the work was over, I had a (inking afternoon and night of it, often will-Aug I had gone away whenMr Wilfen.ended, feeing myfelf a vile minifter, good for nothing; and the fente of the difficulties of that work, and ofmy own mif'managewents, lay heavy on me. And on the morrow, as I was by the way, I was indeed like to faint Under . there iniprelliions.. As I was coming through W. moor, I miftook the way, and booed my horfe in the mots be- yond R.. After much toiling with him in vain, I fat down and Cried to the Lord ; tried it again, but it would not dò ; fo that I had thoughts of lofing Trim. I call off my boots and cloak, and went to the town to feek help. The perforr to: whom I fpoke .knewme not, and fb fent me to the field to the mowers. I came to one company, who -feet me to another, who were more corn- pafíionate. So two or three went away with me to the mots; and tholè in the town having known me after I was gone, had gone to the horfe, who had got , up to his feet -ere they came. So he was got out of the Mofs, and- I was couducted to the right way. When I came home, I niet with another temptation, ere ever I fat down, which was another nail to my-heart ; the rather íharp, that it was driven by a hand -from whence I expeéted it not : which brought mein mind ofa note to that purpote in the latter end of my fermon at Afhkirk, fulfilled. in myfelf, whatever -it might he in.others. I would fainhave had Mr Wilton flaying with me on the Monday's night, for my fupport; but the Lord would not. With there, things, and the wonderful conduél of Providence towards me, I was much .broken, and .made to go withabowed-down back, and myhealth impaired. Someothers had no mean thoughts of the work there. Mr Wilton fuid, that for the Saturday, had he been to have preached after tue, he would not have opened his Mouth, but difinif ed. the people as they were. I blefs the Lord, that lets me fee my own vilenefs
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