340 MEMOIRS Or . PERIOD XI lieving it. Then the thought with herfelf, O that I had com- fort too ! And conudering, that when the promife comes not in, the firmer may go out into it, and leek it, fhe fet herfelf to feek accordingly : but then was brought untoher, as without feeking, that word,. Cant. iv. 8. " Come with me from Lebanon," &c. and that cháp. ii. 11. " For lo, the winter is pail," &c. That time appeared to her to be a gathering time ; and accordingly The fet herfelf to gather promifes, and got them abtindantly ; and the fung in her heart, " To thefe long.defolations, thy feet lift, do not tarry, for all the ills thy foes bath done within thy faneluary." It was as it were Paid to her, What is thy petition ? She found that all that time the body of death, had not made its ufizal moleftation that the as it were looked about for it, Pay- ing, What is become of the body ofdeathnow ? And it was as it were anfwered, It was in the flocks. She looked about for her melancholy, to tee what was become of it ; and law it as it had been a fpark of fire under aches; faid within herfelf, Lord, if I flail be returned to life, and be fet again on the gaping waters, I will fall a doubting and difhonouring thee again; and that bolted in on her, My grace is fitflicient for thee." During the fame time the gravel hanging about me, I rode a little ordinarily every day, on that account. Twice I took 'lode with the fit on me, and the riding carried it off. I had refolved to fettle my affairs anew by teftament, and on the Monday after the fell ill I attempted it ; but could do nothing to purpofe ; and hitherto I have had no. accef's to effeét it. On the laft of February, my MS. on the accentuation was returned, being tranfcribed ; and a letter by Mr Wilfon to Jervifwood was con- certed. On the 8th of March, the fever began to recur with the in- flamation, but was mercifully carried by. That word has been much on her fpirit, " Be Hill, and know that I amGod : fome. time that, " Stand frill, and fee the falvation of the Lord." And the voice of God to her with refpeét to her melancholy feemed to be, That the thould Rand to her poft. Whatever be the nine, the Lord has fo kindly managed this additional trial, that neither the nor I have been put behind the hand. March 14. Since the firft of this month, I have been fenfibly cater as to my gravel and in better health than before. Yeller- day we kept a congregational fait for the feafon, and bodily ftrength was furnifhed me to my wonder. March. ló. Howbeit, after it, the weather turned very bad ; fo the Lord has anfwered us by terrible things in righteoufnefs. I am 'low near the end of my preaching on the hearing of prayer, but no appearance of my wife's deliverance, the trouble rather increafing ; withal I am turnéd worfe as to my ownbody. There things have ihaken me fore ; and now for forne time it bath been my delire and aim, to be refigned, and to be content to fit frill under my cloud the Lord has caft over me. Howbeit,
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