341 MEMOI&S OF PERIOD XI. me ; and that it Mould be made 'forthcoming to me, for my feveral needs for time and eternity, according to his faithful word of promife : pleading,, that my /failings fhould not make void this trantaction, and that I be allowed to remember it, and renew it., as often as need requires. And having for my exercife a moreThan ordinary load on my fpirit, I did, with all the folemn ferioufnefs I was capable of, beg and requeft for the Lord's pity and help in that particular ; that if he faw it meet he might remove it, but if it muft continue, that he would keep me near himfelf in it ; that his grace may be fufficient for me, and I may be kept from finking defpondency, Rill believing; in the wortt of times, that God is my God in Jefus Chrift the Mediator, and will with the ternptation give an outgate, Orftrength to bear it. And with the fame folemn ferioufnefs, I begged, that his Spirit, whom I washelped to look to for afirftance in this my addrefs, might all along dire&, guide, and affil me in my addreffes to him for the fiapply of my wants, and to aim at and feek my fruit, by. flicking to the root. Jefus Chrift, and not from my fincerity, nor any thing elfe in myfelf; looking on the Lord Jefus as the head of influences, and as made of God unto me, wifdom, righteoufnefs, fandtification, and redemption ; from whence I was led in unto a fweet view of my union and com- munion with him.' My work on the catechifm fill lying by without a return to it, I have been feeling, of the Lord, that he will clear me as to what I am to do. I would fain be helped to be doing fome- thing for my Mailer while I am in life ; yet defiring to fubmit, if he will take no more in that kind off my hand, but that I might glorify him now by fuffering. And now my way be, gins to clear fomewhat towards reviling the notes on the cove-. nant of grace : and it is encouraging, that, whereas I found my- felf quite out ofcafe for ftudy on Friday and Saturday, yet was obliged to preach twice yefterday, the Lord helped thereto, al- lowing firength for his work. April Q. I have been fill feeking to be cleared as aforefaid, three things being before me. 1. Going on in the work on the Hebrew text, which I can find no freedom to enter on at prefent, confidering it as the chief, to make way for which other things are to be difpatched. Q. Going forward on the catechìfhi ; as to which, I find I was providentially carried in to it without de- fìgn,:' and having finithed the firft part of the catechifín, I was flopped after the fame :manner ; and there appears a kind of huftice in leaving the ref of it unto my two brethren : it anfwers ot my deign for the parifh,"as to a form of examination, being after the frft queftions quite too large: and for my children, as mtìch is done in it, as will ferve them a good time. I have neverthelefs found it to be ofvaluable ute to me finte that time: and I biefs the Lòrd, who led me to it, in the manner above re- lated. 3. Writing on the covenant Of grace ; to which my
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