Boston - BX9225 B68 A1 1805

,362 MEMOIRS OF PERIOD XI. own work ; and trufting in him for it, I got it in an uncommon meafure, together with the clearnefs and diftinCtnefs above mentioned. It kilted with me that night after the work. But inbed I awaked out offleep, pained with a fit ofa colicor gravel, and fofpent much of the night drinking warm water and vomit- ing ; but it was indeed gentler than fuch fits ufe to be at home. That moment wherein I (hall have dropt this tabernacle, has of a confiderable time been much in my view, as that wherein the foul {hall find either fin left in it without remedy, or totally abolifhed : therefore, at the table, I endeavoured, among other things, to get faith ftrengthened with refpe& to that moment, by the feat of the covenant. While there, I had a comfortable account of the acceptance and ufefulnefs of theFourfold State, in remote places, particular- ly in the highlands ; which filled me with thankfulnefs. Alfo I found, that others of the Lord's minifters and people have fore trials as well as I ; and feveral of them forer trials. I would therefore, if I could, fit down more quietly under mine. I fee God puts a great honour on me, and therefore razeth me off mine own bottom, and empties me, that I fee, that what he does good with to others, by me, is not mine, but his own : and he will have me to acknowledge it. Lord, I do frommy heart acknowledge it, and on the bended knees ofmy foul! When, upon my return from Maxton, I began to apply my- felf to my prefent butnefs, what laybefore me was. the direótion concerning perfonal covenanting. This particularly I entered on, and proceeded in, with much fear and trembling. Where- fore I did oft and again take my notes, fpread them before -the Lord, and pray over them, for light into that .matter ; and it was not in vain. About this time, having begun to fufpe6 the bufinefs of the of the effay on the accentuation was like to be at a fìand, the printer who firft moved it to me feeming to have loft his difpofition for it; I was. confirmed therein by a letter of Oótober 15. and thereafter by my fon, who had feen him. What has moved him, I cannot yet learn. But I was very eafy on that event, laying it at the Lord's feet, trufting on him, that he who brought it to me, wilrfee to it ih his own time. And upon this Rate of that affair, a fecond tryft with Mr Wightman was given upby me. Mean while, being in Buccleugh 00c. 29. at a diet of catechif- ing, Mr J. G. on his journey to London, came to me, and flay- ing all night with me there, made very kind propofals of good offices in London, with refpec`t to that and other performances of mine. This was the more comfortable to me, and bore the more of the fignature of divine condu& in my eyes, that it fell out quite unexpedtedly at fuch a nick of time ; and that the Lord had made him the means of bringing that effay firft of all

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