JANEWAY. 283 and eternity. He lived as a stranger in the world, and in the constant prospect of a better state. Like the worthy patriarch, " he looked for a city. which hath foundations whose builder and maker is God." His meditations, his discourse, his whole deportment, all made it appfar that he was first ripening for glory. He was never satisfied unless he was employed in those pursuits which brought him nearer to God and the kingdom of heaven. Hereby his faith was increased to full assurance. The Lord often called him up to the mount and let him see his glory. He often feasted upon the fat things of God's house, and enjoyed many foretastes of future blessedness. From his own happy experience, he could say to others, "Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Come unto me, and I will declare unto you what he bath done for my soul." In the midst of all needful worldly comforts he longed for death ' and his thoughts of the dayof judgment greatly sweetened all his enjoyments. He said, " What if the day ofjudgment. were to come even this hour ? I should be glad with all my heart. I should hear such thunderings, and behold such lightnings as Israel did at the 'mount; and I am persuaded my heart would leap for joy. But this I am confident of, that the meditation of that day hath even ravished my soul; and the thoughts of its certainty and nearness is more refreshing to me than all the comforts of the world. Surely nothing can more revive my spirit than to behold the blessedJesus, who is the life and joy of my soul." It required no small degree of patience and self-denial to be kept so long from him whom his soul loved. Mr. Janeway at length found himself in a deep consump- tion, but was not afraid. The spitting of blooddid not in the least intimidate him, who enjoyed an interest in the blood of Christ. During the progress of his complaint, he was seised with dimness in his eyes, which ended in the total loss of his sight. Being in expectation of his departure, he called his mother, and said, " Dear mother, I amdying ; but I beseech you be not troubled. Through mercy I am quite above the fear of death. It is no great matter. I have nothing that troubles me, excepting the apprehension of your grief. I am going to Him whom I love above life." From this fainting fit the Lord was pleased to revive him ; and for several weeks his soul was so devoutly employed in the contemplation of Christ and heaven, that Ire almost forgot his pains and sickness. His faith, his
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