roa Grace 'aboH,Jclii;g,· 217. : B1Jt, not\vithftanding all t hefe helps, and bleifed words ofGrace)yet that of Efluis felling of his Birth-right,would frill at times ~Hfttefs my Confcience; for though I had beell' n1ofr fweetlycomforted, and that ~1!l: before,. . yet when that came into n1y 111i'nd ;- it \VOllld make me fear agai_n, I could not be quite rid thereof,'twould every day be with 1ne:where– fore· now I went another way to work, even to confider the nature of this blafphemons thought, I mean, If I fhould take the words atthe lar~eft, and give tben1 their own natu...· ra: force apd icope,even every ·\vord therein: So when I had thus confidered ,I found that if they were fairly taken,they wonld an1ount to this/That I had freely l~ft the Lord Jefus Chrijf to his fhoJ·ce,rvhet her he tt1oulcl ·be my Sa·viottr, or · no; 'for the wicked words \Vere thefe, Let _him go ifhe will. Then that Scripture gave n1e l1ope, I will never /ea11e thee, nor forfltke thee, Heb. 1 3. 5· 0 Lord_, fa id I,b_tit 1 have left thee. Then it arifwered again, But I .will n~t lea1.1e 1hr:e. For this I thank God alfh. . .\ . 21 8~Yct I was gtievous afraid he fhould;and fouad it exceeding hard to truft him,fee'ing I had fo qffendecl hirn;I could have beti1 excee,. --ding-·gladthat this thought had -nevet befa1!e11, for then I tlrought I could,with more eafe and freedon1 abundance, have lean}d ori his_.Grace., I fee it H:as with n1e~, as ·it was with Jofeph's 13 rethrcn, the guilt of their own wickedn~fs aid-often till thCfll ~tvithfears~thattheir Bro&her . . ~ · "iYOUld
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