to thl Chief of SitJ»ers: ~ 6. Alfo I .fhould,at thefe Years, be greatly · ,_ afRit\:ec:l and troubled with the thoughts of the fearful Tormentsof HeU-.fire,ftill fearing that it would be my Lot to be found,at laft,among thofe Devils and hellifh Fiends who are there bound down with the Chains and Bonds of Darknefs,unto the Judgment ofthegreatDay. 7· thefe things, I fay, when I was but a; Child,but nine or ten years old,did fo diftrefs my Soul; that then, in the midft of tny many · Sports, and Childifi1 Vanities,amidft rny vain 1 .Companions,! was often much caft down and afflicted in my Mind therewith ; yet could I not let go n1y Sins : Yea, I was alfo then fo overcome with Defpair of Life and Heaven, · that I faould often wiib, either that there bad been no Hell., or that .I had been a Devil; ~ul?-.. pofing they were only Tormentors, that If it muft ·needs he, that I indeed went thither, I might be rather a Torm~ntor, than be tor.. ~ mented tny felf. , · · 8. A while after,thefe terrible Dreams did leaven1e,whichl alfo foonforgot;for myPlea– fures didquickly.cut off the rerne.1nbrance of . them,- as.if they had never been: Vvherefore \vithmore greedinefs,according to theflren(ltb of Nature,! did frill let loofe the Reins to~ny Luft,anddelighted in all~ranfgreffion againft; · the Law of God :-Sq that until I can1e to t'he · State of Marrisge,I_was the very Ringlea_der of aJl the Youth that kept me company,in all znann-er of Vice and llngodlinef75? · -·--- - ... . ... . - - . . A ~ ~ 9 • Yea, ·
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