. . t(J the Cbief of. Sinntrs. · ~ . · 2 2. Bnt the fame day, as I was in the midft · of a gatne at Cat;& having ftruck it one blow . from the Hole, juft as I was about to ftrike it . the fecond time, a Voice did fuddenly dart from Heaven into my Soul, which faid~ Wilt· thou leavt thy, fins and go to 'H_eaven, or have . thy fins a~d go to Hell? At this I was .Put to an exceedingMjze; wherefore, leaving my Cat tlpon the gtound,Ilooked up to Heaven, and was as if I had, with the Eyes of tny un– derfta.nding, feen ~he Lord jefus looking . down upon rne, as being very hotly difp.leaf– ed with me, and as if he did feverely threa– ten me ·with fome grievo~s ... Punifument for . thJfe and other my ungodlyPractices. · 23. I had no fooner thus conceived in n1y Mind, but fHddenly this c6nclnfion was faft- · n~d on my Spirit {for the former hint did fet my fins again before my Face) That I hadbeen agreat and grievous finnen, and that it was now I too latefor me to look after Heaven ; for Chrift wouldnot forgive me,norpar~on ~yTrangreJ!io'!s. Then 1fell to mufing upon th1s alfo ; & whtle I was thinkingof it,and fearing leaft it fhould b~fo,.I felt my Heart fink iri Defpair,cpnclu– dtng It was too late; and therefore I refolved in tny Mind, I would goon in fin:For, thoght I, if the Cafe be thus, myState is furely mife– rable.;_miferable if I' leave my Sins, and but mifera·bieifl follow thetn: I can> but bedam;.. ned, and if it muft be fo, I had as good be ~amned 'lllY many Sins,ai be damned for ·few.. -.l4; f~us I ~~od in the midtt Qf my ~Pl\lf, - - · -- ··-- -·-·- · ··-- _ .. -- · before
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