·to . Grace a!J~nding before all that then were prefent; but yet I told them nothing: But, I fay,I having made this conclufion, I returned defperately to my fport again; and I well remember, that pre– fently this kind of Defpair did fo poffefs my Soul, that I was per{waded, I could never at· tain to other Comfort than what I fh_ould get· in fin; for Heaven was gone already, fo that on that I rn_uft not thin.k : Wherefore I found within me agreat defire to take my fill of fin, frill ftudying what fin was yet to be comn1it– ted, that I n1ight tafte the fweetnefs of it ; and I made as much bafte as I could to fill my Belly with its Delicates,leaft I fhould dye . before I had my Defire ; for that I feared greatly.In thefe things,Iproteft before God,!lye not, neither 1 do I feign this · form of Speech; thefe were really, frrongly, and with all my heart, my defires : The good IJord,wlaofe MercJ is unfearchable, forgive rne my Trttn[gre[{ions.. 25.. And I amveryconfident,that thisTemp~ tation of the Devil is more ufual among poor Creatures than many are aware of, even to over-run the Spirits \vith a fcurfy and feared frame ofHeartand benumbing ofConfcience; which Fran1e he ftillyaud fiily fupplieth with fuch defpair, that though not much guilt at• tendeth Souls, yet they continually ~have a fe.. cret conclufion within them, that there is no hopes for them; for they ha~e loved Sins,there-. 1 fore after thern they will uo,]er.2.25.and 18. 12.· · 26. Now therefore6 I went on in fin with - -- - - gr~~~
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