to the Chief of· Sinner.~. ~ )· m11ch afflicted and difquieted ; fomet imes by one, an-d fometimes by the other of ~~e·m. And firft, to fpeak ofthat about my qu~fti.oning my Election; I found·at this time, that though I was,. in a flar11e to find the vyay to Heaven and Giory,and.though nothing could beat me off fron1 this, yet this Q!teft~on did fo ~ffend and di~courag~ ~ne, that I was, ef– pectally at fotnet1mes, as ·If thevery ftrength of my ,bodyalfo had been taken aJvvay by the ·force and power thereof. This Scripture alfo did feem to me, to trample upon all n1y de..-·· fires ; It is neither inhint that willeth; nor in him that runneth; but in God that jheweth . mercy, . J\.om. 9· f )9· With this Scripture I · could not tell V{ hat to do, for I ev;idently f.~nv, :1 nl~fs that the great God , of his infinite Grate, and ' Bounty, had voluntarily chofen, me to be a ,, . Veffel ofMercy, though I fhould defire, and long, and labour until tny .heart did break, no good could come of it. Therefore . th~ would frill ftick .with tne, How can you tell · you are El(rted ? And what ifyou fhould not ? ' how then? _ ._ ~o. 0 ·Lord, \thought I, what if I fuoul~ ~, not indeed? It tnay be, you arenot, faid the Tempter: It jmay be fo indeed, thought I. Why then, faid Sata·n, you had as good ::, leave off, and ftrive no further; for if in- 'deed, you jhould not--be Elected and chofen ~ of God, there is no talk_of your ·heing faved; · .. B 4 · Fa
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