to tht Chief of Sb1»trs~ ·43 ~ 98. Sometimes I have endeavoured to ar– gue againft thefe Suggeftions, anGI ~o fet fome of the Seiltences ot ble.lfed Paut agatnft them : ·but,alas! I quickly felt, when thus I did, fu~ll arguings as thefe would quickly return again npon me; Though we made, fo great tt matter of – Paul, and ofhis Words, yet how coftld I tell but that, in very deed, he being aJubtlc and .cunni.ng Man, might give himfeif up to deceive with flrong Delufions, and a/fo to take the Pains and Travel., t_oundo and deflroy his Fellows• . 99· Thefe Suggeftions (\V ith many other · \\ hich at this time I 1nay not , nor dare not utter , neither" by \Vord nor Pen) ·did n1 ake fuch a feizu.re upon tny fpirit,and did fo over– weigh my heart,both with their nuinber')cou– tinuan8e, ~nd fiery force,that I felt as if there \Vere nothing elfe but thefe fr~rn l110rning tO night \V ithin me , and as tho' indeed there could be. roorn for not"hingelfe, and alfo con– clud-ed, .that God had, in very 'Wrath to my Soul,given n1e 11p-to thern,~o becarried away with them, as with a tnighty V\7hirlwind. ' I oo. Only by the diftafte that they gave unto my Spirit, I felt there WtU fomethincr in me that rrfttfed to embrace them. But this cgnfide– ration I then only had, when God gave me leave to fwallow ri1y Spittle; other'A\'ife the noi_fe, and ftrength,and fo~· ce of thefeTemp· ~at1ons would drown and ·overflotv, and, as It wcre,bury all fuch thoughts, or the rcn1Ci11brance of any fuch thing. \Vhile I · ·c
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