to the Cbiej· of Sinners: ·47· Cloath.s: Be would be alfo continualiy at n1e ·· ·in tin1e of Prayer, to have done, break ofi~ make hafte, and have prayed enough, and flay no longer; frill drawing i~y Mind ~way .. ·somethnes alfo he would caft 10 foch wicked thoughts as thefe; that I m~- ft p~ay: to hitn,or · for him: I have thought iotneumes of that,. Fall down., or., If thou rv£/t j all dorvn and mor- • p1ip me·, ., Matt. 2. 9· . 1 o8. Alfo, \vhen becaufe.I have had wan ~ cering 17houghts in the tin1e of this .Duty, £.– have laboured to compofe my.\Mind and fix it·: 11pon God; then, with ~reat force hath the 'Iempter labour.ed to d!Itracr and co!lfound me, ; and to turn away 1nv rviind , by pr~- . , fenting to ·n1y Heart and Fancy, the Fonn·of · a Bull,aBuih,a- l}eforn~or the like, as ifI·fhould pray.to thefe. To thefe alfo h~ would (at forne times efpecially) fo held n1y1\:1ind, that I \v.as . as if ~ould think of nothing elfe , or pray t@'.. notl g elfe but to there, or fuch as they. 109..Yet at times I fhould ,. have fon1e ftrong and heart-affectingapprehenfionsofGod, and. the reality of the Truth ot this Goi~tJel~ But, Oh! how would my heart at fuch tin1es put · - forth it felf with inexpreflible Groanings!L\1 y .whole Soul was then in every\JVord ~I Ihould . cry \-~i_t h pangs after God, that he would be · n1erc1 tulunto n1e: But then I rn0uld be daunt- . ed again with fuch conceits as thefe; I fhould ;_ , tl1ink that God did mock Jt thete n1y Pray.~ ers; faying, .and that in the audience of the .· C 3~~- .. ,holy!.
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