to thf Chief of Sinners. 59 a more· grievous and dreadful T'en1ptation than before. . · 1 33· And '· that \Vas, to foil and par·t with t~-:Jil mofl ble;fed Chrifl~to e.t~change hitn fot the things of this life,for any thing. 1-·heTernptation lay 11pon n1e for the fpace ofaYear, and did fol– low me fo continually,that I was not rid of it one day in a Month; no, not fon1etimes.one· hour in many days together, unlefs when I was afleep. , I · 1 34· l\nd tho' in tny Judgment I was per– fwaded, that thofe who were effe&nally in. Chrifr(as I hoped,thro' his Grace, I had been my felt) could neve·r lofe hin1 for ever; (For · the land fhall not be fold for ever, for the land is . mine, faith God, I ..ev.25.23.) yet·it was a con– tinual vexation to n1e, to think that 1 iliould have fo much as ·one fuch thought within n1e againft a Chrifr, a Jefus, that had done for me as he had done; and yet then I had aln1oft none others bEt fi1ch blafphen1ous ones. 135· But it was neither tny difiike of the ' thought._nor yet any defire. or endeavour to / rcfift it,th:It in the leaft did fhake or abate the continuation or force and iltength thereof; for it did alyvays,inaltnoft whatever I thought, intern1'x it felf therewith, in fuch fort that l ~ould ne~ther eat wy food, Hoop f~r a pin, chop a ftick, or caft n1ine Eye to look on this or that,, but Hill the te1nptation \\·ould con1e, · Ee!l ChrYl for this, orfell Chrifl for that, fell hirJJ, · '. fell him. 136 ~ome-
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