to the Chief of Shmers. 8~ condemn, lay guilt upon, and alfo add con- / tinual Affiittion and Shan1e unto my Soul :· The dread of them was upon rnr, and I trembled at God's Sarr1uels, 1 Sam. I 64.. 1 83. Now alfo the Ten1 ptcr began afrefh to mock my Soul another Way, faying., 7hat ~hrifl; indeed, did pity ,my cafe, and was forry for my lofs ; but forafmuch as I had finned and rdnfgrcf{ed as I had done, he couldby no ·means htlp me, nor fave _me fr,om what I feared; for my SitJ was n'ot ofthe nature oftheirs for rvhom he bled and died, neither was it coltnted with tho[e that were laid to his charge when he hanged on the Tree : Therefore,unlefs he fhould comedorv'lf from _he..1·ven,and die anew for this ftn,tho' indeed he did greatly pity me,yet I could haveno benefit of him•. Thefe things may feemridiculous to others, even as _ridiculous as they were in the1i1felves, hut to tne they were moft tonnenting Cogi– tations: Every of then1 aag1nented my Mi.. fery, that Jef'us Chrift fh'ould have fo much Love as to pity me, when he could not help . me; nor did I think that the reafon why he could not help me., was, becaufe his ~1erits . , were weak)or his G··ace and Salvation fpent on them already, but becanfe his faithfulnefs to his tltreJtning woul.d .not let hi'n1 extend his mercy to me. Befides I thought, as 1have ~lrcady hi.nted, th~t n1y fin was \\'rapped up ln a Promrfe; and If not, then I knew affu– redly,that it was 1nore e:1fie for Heaven and Earth to p:1fs away,than·for me to have eternal
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