SELINA, COUNTESS OF HUNTINGDON, condition of ecstatic happiness which LadyMargaret spoke of, she had never known. A dangerous disorder shortly after seized her, and brought her to the brink of the grave. During the tedious time of her illness, she remembered the words of Lady Margaret ; and she began to see the terrible mistake she had been making. A desire awoke within her heart, that she might be led into the right path, and with ardent prayer she resolved to retrieve her way. Her anxiety on the subject grew so oppressive, that she meditated sending for Martin Benson, Bishop of Gloucester, who had been Lord Huntingdon's tutor, -in order to consult him, with the view of settling her doubts. From that time her disorder took a favourable turn ; she was restored to perfect health, ready to offer herself in all humility as a Servant of God. A slight circum- stance which occurred at this time gave her a shock, and added to her sense of her own imperfections. Having made a promise of some gift to her house- keeper, she forgot to perform it, and the person being soon after gone from the family, she could not find en opportunity of redeeming her word, which made " a wound in her conscience," andshe regretted it so deeply, that it made her uneasy for a long time. Upon her recoveryfrom her illness, she sent amessage to John and Charles Wesley, who were then in the neighbourhood, assuring them that she was "one with them in heart," cordially wishing them good speed in the name of the Lord, and mentioning her 10
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