68 Heaven upon Earth. unquietnelfe to the heart.The guilty man may have a fceming truce, a true peace he A cannot have. Lookupon the face ofthe guilty heart, and thou fualt fee it pale ond ghaftly;the fmiks ana laughters faint and heanleffe;the fpccchcs doubtfull, and full ofabrupt ftops and unfcafonable turnings ; the purpofes and motions unfteady, and favouring ofmuchdiftratlion, arguing plainly that fin isnot fo fmooth or her firft motions, as turbulent afterwards: hence are thofevaine wearyings of pbces and companies together with our felves 1 that the galled foole doth after the wont of lick Patients feek refrefuingin variety; and afrer many tolfed and turned fides, complaines of remedileffe and unabated torment. Ner• after fo much innocent bloud, may change his bed.chamber,but hisFiends ever attend him,<ver arewithin him, andareaspartsofhimfdfe. Alas, whac availes it to fecke outward reliefes, when thou halhhinc<xccutionc:r within thee~ Ifthou eouldeft fuifr from thy felfc, thou mightcft have fomc hope ofcafe; now thou fualr never want furies folong as B thou halt thy felfc. Yea,what ifthou wouldclhun from thy felfc? Thy foule may llye fromthy bo1y; thy confcicnce will not flye from thyfoulc, nor thy linncfro8l thy confcicne<.Somc men indeedinthe bittemeffeofthefe pangs oflinnc, likcunro rhofc fondly impatientfifues, that leap outofrbc pan into the llame , havclcapt out ofthis private hell that is inthcmfelves,intothccommon pit, cbuling to adV<nture upon the furoref.aines thatthey have feared, rathcrrhen to endure the prefcnr horrors they have elt: wherein what have they gained, but 10 that hell which was within them, afecond hell without~ The coofcienccleavesnorwheretheFiends begin, but both joyne rogetber in torture. But there are fame firmeand obdurate fore. beads, whofc rcfolution can laugh their fins out of countenance. There are c fa large and able gorges, as thatthey can [wallow and digcft bloudy murders,with· out comJilaint , who, with the fame hands which they have fince their !aft meale 'the joy ~d imbrue inbloud,canfreely carvetothemfelves large morfels at the next fitting. B:lceveft thou that foch a mansheart lao~hes with his face~ will not he dare to be pe2rcofrhe an Hypocrite, that d~tft be a villainc ~ T efe ~low-wormes, whena night of for· guihybutdif.. ""'"!<d· rowcompaffesrhem, makcaligbtfomc and eryfuew of joy,whenifthoupreffe them, thou findcft nothingbut acold and crude inoyfturc. Knoweft thou not that there are thofc whichcount it no fuame to finDC, yet count ita fuame to be checked with rcmorfe,efpecially foas otherseyes may ddcry ~To whom repentance fecms bafc.mindcdneffe, unworthy ofhim that profeffcs wifdome and valour. Such a man cangrieve when none feesir,but himfclfcan laugh when others fee it, himfclfc D feeles not. Affure thy felfc that mms heart bl<cdcth, wlren his face countctfeits a fmile; he weares out manywaking hourcs, when thou thiokeft he refteth: yea, as his thoughts affordhim not llecp, fohisvcry llecpaffords him not reft, but while his fenfcs arc rycd up,bis fin is loofc; reprefcnting it fclfe tohimin the uglicft fuape, and frightioPr him with ho~riblc and hcllifu drcames. And if perhaps cuftomc !lath bred a carte ne!fcin him, (aswefccthat ufuall whipping makes the cbildc not care for the rod) yet an unwonted extremity of the blowfuall fetch bloud ofthe foulc, and make the back that is moll hardned,fcnliblcoffmart: and the further the blow is fctcht through intcrmiffion ofremorfc,the hardc~ itmull needs alight : Therefore Imay confidently tell the carcleffe finner, as that bold TrAgtdi•n faid to his great l'""P'1 : The time fuall come whercln thou fualt fetch deep fighcs, and therefore E !halt farrow defpctately, bccaufethou forrowedft not fooner.The fire ofthe confci· ence may lie for a time fmootheredwirh a pylcofgreen wood, that it cannot be difcerned, whofc moifture when once it hath maftered, it fends up fo much greater flame, by how much it had greater reliftaocc. Hope nor then to ftop themouth ofthy confcicncc from exclaiming,whiles thy finoe continues; that cndevour is both vaine and hurtfull; So I havefccn them that have !lopt the nofthrill for bleeding, iohopetoftayrheilfuc, whenrhebloudhindred in his former courfe, bath broken our of the mouth, or found way down into the ftomacke. The confcicnce is not pacifiable, while finne is within to vex it: no more rhenan angry 1\vclling can ceafethrobbingand aching, whilesthe thorne or the corrupted matter lies rotting underneath. Time, that remedies all other eYills of the mindc, increafcth this, I which
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