381 Then the collonell went down into the country, and found it necessary to reduce and change his famely, whicl1' were many of them people he tooke in for charity, when they could no where elce be receiv'd, and they had bene more humble and dutifull while they were under hatches, but now might find better preferrments, and were not to be confided in; yett he dismist not any of them without bountifull rewards, and such kind dismissions as none but that false generation would. not have bene oblieged by. But some of them soone after betrey'd him as much as was in their power, whose prudence had so liv'd with them, that they knew nothing that could hurt his person. ·when the collonell saw how the other poore gentlemen were trapan'd that were brought in by proclamation, and how the whole cause itselfe, from the beginning to the ending, was betrey'd and condemn'd, notwithstanding that he himselfe, by a wonderfull overruling providence of God, in that day was preserved; yett he look'd upon himselfe as iudg'd in their iudgement, and executed in their execution; ' and although he was most thankfull to God, yett he was not very well satisfied in himselfe for accepting the deliverance. His wife, who thought she had never deserv'd so well of him, as in the endeavours and labours she exercis'd to bring him of, never displeas'd him more in her life, and had much adoe to perswade him to be contented with his deliverance; which, as it was eminently wrought by God, he acknowledg'd it with thankfnllnesse; but while he saw others .suffer, he suffer'd with them in his mind, and, had not his wife perswaded him, had offer'd himselfe a voluntary sacrifice, but being by ' her convinc'd that God's eminent appearance seem'd to have singled him out for preservation, he with thankes acquiesced in that thing; and further remembering that he J A sentiment most conformable to nature - but to a most just and amiable nature!
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