162 FORGIVENESS OF SIN. expected tribulation and wrath from the hand of God: " My sore ran in the night, and ceased not, and my soul refused comfort." How is it, then, that you are thus delivered, that you are no more sad l Where have you found peace 1 have you been by any means delivered, or did your trouble wear off and depart of its own accord 1 answer. Alas ! no, it did not wear off of itself; had I not met with an effectual remedy, I had sunk, and everlastingly perished. What course did you take 1 answer. I went to Him, by Jesus Christ, against whom I have sinned, and have found him better to me than I could expect, or ever should have believed, had not he filled my heart by communications of his Spirit. Instead of wrath, which I feared, and that justly, because I had deserved it, he said to me in Christ, "Fury is not in me." For a long time I could not believe it ; I thought it impossible that there should be mercy and pardon for me, or such a one as I. But he still supported me, sometimes by one means, sometimes by another; until, taking my soul near to himself, he caused me to see the folly of my unbelieving heart, and the vileness of the hard thoughts I had of him, and that indeed there is with him forgiveness and plenteous redemption. This has taken away my sorrows, and given me quietness, and assurance. But are you sure now that this is so may you not possibly be deceived 1 answer. I have not the least suspicion of any decep- tion.or mistake in this matter. But how are you confirmed in this persuasion 1 answer. That sense of it which I have in my heart, that sweetness and rest which I experience, that in- fluence it has on my soul, that obligation I find laid on me by it to all thankful obedience, that relief, support
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