fay in n1y felf, Now I am ;-tt J~{r,pf _, let me rnaN.e an end. No, fJid he, ) 1 0U rnN/f do h f'J ont., or yoH wilt difple.afe God, lind defpife Chrijl Wherefore I was much afflicted \Vith thcfe things ., and becaure of the finfulnefs of my pature (ima– gining that thefe things were ilnpulfes from God )I fhoulddeny to do it, as if I deniedGod; and then fhould_I ·be as guilty becaufe I did not obey a Tetnptation of the Devil, as ifl had broken the Law of Ged h1deed. 1 39· ·· But to be brief, one Morning as I did lre in my Bed, I was . as at other times, moft fiercely a!faulted with thisTemptation, to felt, and part with Chrift; the \Vicked fuggeftion frill running in myMind, 5e0 hirn, {c.!t him, fell him, fell him, fell hitn, as faft as -a man could fpeak: Againfi: \V hieh alfo, in my mind, as' at other times, .I an(wered No, no, not for thou~ ands,thoufands,thoufands, at leaft twenty tin1es together: But at lafr, after fuch ftriving,even 11ntil I was almoft out of breath, I 'felt this thonght pafs th_ro' n1y heart, Let hint go ifhe will; and I thought alfo that l felt my' heart freely confent thereto. Oh, the diligence of Satan ! Oh, the defperatenefs of Ma-n'-she~rt! ·· p r40. Novv was the Battle won, and do\Vn. fell I, as a Bird that is fi1ot fr.on1 the top of a Tree, into great .guilt and fearful defpair. Thus getting out ofmy Bed, I went rnopeing into the Field:, but,God knows,with as heavy an h_eart as mortal ntan, I think could bear, where for the,fpace oftwo hours 1 I was like a n1an
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