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29
3.But in
tL1is
work,
as
in
all other
I had
.
l.
?
my
temptat1on ·attenu1ng me,
and that of
di·
vers kind s,as
fon1etLnes
1
Ihordd
be
a.flaulte~
vv
ith
great
difcoun~getnent
therein ;
fearing:
that I ibould not be
able
to fpeak a
word
at all
to
ed ific:nion :,
nay,
that
I
fhould
not
b~ ab~e
to
,rpeak fenfe -unto the
people;
at which
tln1es
r
lhon]d
have
fuch a
ftrange
faintnefs and ft·ren
gthlef:1efs
feize upon
my
.. body
1
that
,nJy
legs have fcarce
been
able
to
carry
1ne
tp
the place of Exercif'e.
' 294~
Son1etin1es
ag~in,
vvhen
I have been
preaching, - I have hcen violently
af1aulted
with
thotlghts of
Blafphemy,
and
ftrol~gly
tempted to
fpea~
the
\Vord
with
my
mouth
before the Congregation. I have
alfo
a t
fome
time, even w.hen I
have
begun
to
fpea~
the
word
with rnuch
clearnefs?evrdence
r.nd liber..
ty
of fpeech, yet been betore
the
ending
of
that Opportu.ni'ty,
f:0
blinded., and
foefl:rang–
ed
froln
the thi ugs I have been
fpeaking, and
ha
~e
alfo been fo frrained in
n1y
fpeach, as to
. utterance
before ,the
people, that
I have
heen
as
if I had
not known or retnembred
what
I11ave
been about, or as
if
my
head
ha~
been
in a
bag
gll
the time of the
Exerdfe.
·
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5·
.Again, \V
hen at -fometitnes ·
I
have
been
abou~
to
preach
upon -._fome
fmart
and
fearching
portion
of
the
word,
1have
found
" theT
en1
ptcr
fuggcft.,what! wiltyouPreach this?
?Jhi.s condemns your _(elf, of thi.J your
~wn
so:d
is
quilty,
wherefore pteaeh
not
of
it at
all, or
if
you
~
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