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to the Chief of
Sinners.
I
7
not
fl:ay
away;
and
the
rr1ore
I
lvent
aniongfr
then1, the more I
d_id
queftion
n1y
Condi~ion;
. and
as
I frill
do
ren1ember,
prefently I
found
two'
things within
me,
2t \V
hi
eh I did
fotne–
timc:s n1arvel
' (efpecially
confid~ring
what
a
bHnd, ignorant, fordid and ungodly Wretch
but juft
before
I ·was:) The one
was
a
'lery
great
foftnefs
~nd
tendernefs
of
~~.1rt,
which
.,aus'd .me to fatl under
th·eCorwH~tion
of
what
by
Scvipture
t~ey ~fle~ted
; .and
the
othet: was
a
grea~ .
Bending
In
n1y
l\1Ind
to a continual
n1editating on them, and on all other good ·
things which at
any
time I
heard
or read
of.
42.
By
thefe things
n1y
Mind
\vas
now fo
turned, that
it
lay like
an
Horfe -leach
at the
Vein,
frill
crying·
out,
Give, Give,
Prov.3o.
1 )·
Ye3,
it
was fo fixed on
Et~rnity,
and
on the
tl!ings
about
the
Kingdo1n
of
Heaven
(that
is,fo
far
as
I knew,
tha'as
yet,
God knows,
I
knew but little) .
that
neither Pleafures,
not~
.Profi.ts, nor
Perfuafions, nor Threats,
conld
loofe it
or
n1~ke i~
let
go
his Hold ;
and
tho
I
!nay
fpeak it with
fi1arne,yct
it
is
in
very
deed;
;.1
certain
7
rut
h;
it
\vould then have
been
as
difficult
for
n1e
to
have taken
my
Mind
from
Heaven _toEarth,as I
hav~
found
it
often
4nce
to
get
again
from
Earth
to
Heaven:
· ·
43·
One
thing I
·n1ay
not omit:
There
was
a
young ma,n
in our
Town,
t~
whonl 'my
Heart ,
·
before
was knit
more/
tkan
to
any
other;
but
he
being
a moft wicked
Creature
for
curfi~g
and
fwe~u·ing,and
whoring,
I
now 1hooi
him