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I
I
2..
_
9r~-1ce
ab;ta:.ding
and been delivered of
an
untimely Birth:
Now at this very ·time
it
\Vas,
that I hJd been
fo
fl:t
ongly
tempted
to queflion
the Being
0f
· ·Cod ;
wherefore, as
n1y
\Vife lay
crying
by
111
e
I
fa
id.,
but
withal
fecrefie
im<;lginable,
even
thir}king
in
my
f.-Ieart,
Lordi(thouwi!t
now Ycnzove
thiJ
[ctd
ttffli8:ion from
my.
Wife, and
caufe that
jl1e
be troubled no
nzore
thererrt'th
this
)\light(
and
no1.v
·were her
pangs
jnfl: upon ·her)
the'! fha!l I
kno1V,
that thott canft dijccrn the
moft
fccret thoup;ht.r oft
he
Heart.
·
,
.
.242 •.
1
had no
fooner
fa
id
it
i.tl
n1y
Heart,.
but
her
pangs
were
taken from her,
and lhe
\vas cafi:
into
a
deep fleep, and fo
continued
till Morning,
at
th1s I greatly
marvelled,
not
knowing what to think;
b~Jt
after I had been
aWake
3
goo'd
\V
: ! l~e,
and
heard her
cry"
flO
more, I fell
to
fleep
alfo;
fo
when
I \vaked
in
, t,he
Mornjng,itcn11e
upon n1eagain,even
w
hJt
I had[1:id in
n ·~ y
reart
the laft Night,and 'how
the
Lord hath ilievved
me that
he knew
my
fe–
cret
Tb_onghts~
w
h i ~I1
was a
great
afronifh-
n1ent unto n1e
for
feveraLweeks
after.
.
.
\
243.
vVelJ, about a
year
and
ha If
after~
\Vards,that wi·cked finfull thought,
of
which
I have fpoken l;efore,\vent thoro\v
rny
wick-
ed
h~·art,
even this
thought,
Let CiJnfr go
if
he
lVi!l
;
fo when I was
fallen pod
er gnilt
for
. this, the
rernetnbrance
of
n1y
other
thought,
·and of the effect thereof,would
alfo
come
up·
on .me with this retort,which alfo carried re–
buke
along
with
it,
f\low
JOlt
mayfee
that God
"'
.tht
h
1;:
'w
t
ke n
oft
fccrtt
thoughts
of
the
Heart.