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Grace
Ab()unding
wasalfo
admJttcd
b~
them:
While
I
thought
of that blefled
Ordinance
of Chrift,
which
":as
~is
laft_
Suppel: with his
Difcipl~s
before ·
Ius death, that Scripture,
Do this in
rtmem–
hrance
of
me,
Luke
22. I
9·
was
made
a
very
precious
word
unto
me:
For
by
it
the Lord
did
come down upon
my
Confcience
with
the
·
~ifcovery
of
hh
death for my fins
and
as I
then
felt,did as
if
he plunged
n1e
jn
the
veT–
tue of
the fame.
B.ut
behold, I had
not
been
long a partaker at that
Ordinance,
but fuch
fierce
and fad tetn,Ptations did attend me at
all times
d1erein,
both ,to blafpbeme the Or–
dinance,and ·to wifu
fome deadly thing to
thofe
that then
did
.e3t
thereof: 'I'hafleaft I
fuo11ld at any time 'be guilty of confehting
to
thofe
wicked and fearful thoughts, I
was
forced to
bend
my
felf
~n
the
while
to
pr:1y
to
God
to
keep me
from
fuch
Blafphemies:
and
~lfo
to
cry
to God to blefs the
Bread and
Cup ·
to
then1.,
~s
it
went
from
Mouth to
1\llouth.
The
Reafo·n
of this ·
ten;ptatioti
I
l1ave ,
thought fit1ce, was, becaufe ' I
~id
not
with that reverence as became me at firlt,:Jp-
proach
to
partake thereof.
·
255· Thus I
continued for
three·
quarters
of ·a Year,
a11 d
could never ha
Ye
rcft
!lOr
e:1fe: But·at the laft the Lord came in npon
n1y
Soul with the
fa,me
Scripture,~y
'fJ
hi
eh
my
Soul
was
vifited before : and
aftlr
·that, I
J1ave 'been
uf:.1ally
very well
and ,Comfortable
jn the
partaking
of
that
bld1d
Ordinance,
and