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Grace :_,.4/!ouHding
fJJhtr~(ore
I
was
engaged
not
to J?inch an
h~#rs
·
~readrhfrom
it.
.
·
.,.
. ·
338. I
thought
alfo,that
God
n1ight choofe
w-hether he would give me con1fort now or ·
at the hour of
Death ;
but , I n1ight
not
therrefo~e ~
t. .toc.fe,
whether
.I
\VQuld
hold
rpy
Proreffi oL· or no. I
\V
c.
s hound
but he
was free
yea ,
't\\·-J·;
my duty
to
ftand to
his Worrl:
w~ether
he would ev(
t
l )ok upon me or fave
me at lafi: :.
Wherefo1
~
though·c I, fave the
point being thus. I an1 for going on
and
ven·
turirig
n1y
Etern.Jl State with Ctrrifi,wbether
1 have Comfort here or no? if God doth not
corne
io,
thought I,
I will Leap offthe
Ladder
tven ·blindfaldintl1 Eternity,
fink
or
frrim,
come
Heaven., c:ome hell, Lord
1efos~
if
tbqu
wilt
catch me, do
;
'if
net I well
venture,
for
thy
Name.
·
339·
,J
w3s nofooner
fixed
upon
this Re·
folution but that word
dropt
upon me,
Doth
Job forve God for nutt!ht!
As if the Accufer
had
faidLo~d,7ob
is
no
upright M.an
he
ferves .
thee for
By
R.efpecl:s ;
Ha{l
thou not made
a
Hedg
abo11t
him>
&c.
but put forth now thine·
Hand and tottch all
that
he bath, and he
r~;/l
curfo thee to
thy
Face.
How now, thought I, is
this the fign ·of an upright Soul to defire
.to
fer've God when all is taken
from
him ? Is-he ·
. ·a
godly
l\1~n
that vvill ferve God ,for nothihg
rather than give out? Bl.e[ ed be
God;
The.n
I hope I have an upright heart,
for
I am ·re–
folved (God
gi~ing ~~ ~~ength) ~e,ver
to