19 / 186
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.
t(J
the
Cbief
of.
Sinntrs.
·
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.
· 2 2.
Bnt the fame day, as I was
in
the midft ·
of a gatne at Cat;& having ftruck it one blow
.
from the Hole, juft as I was about to ftrike
it .
the fecond time, a Voice did fuddenly dart
from Heaven into
my
Soul, which
faid~
Wilt·
thou leavt thy, fins and go to 'H_eaven, or
have
.
thy
fins
a~d
go
to Hell?
At
this
I
was
.Put to
an
exceeding
Mjze;
wherefore, leaving
my
Cat
tlpon
the
gtound,Ilooked
up
to Heaven,
and was as
if
I
had, with the Eyes of
tny
un–
derfta.nding, feen
~he
Lord jefus looking .
down upon rne, as being very hotly difp.leaf–
ed with me, and as
if
he did feverely threa–
ten me ·with fome
grievo~s
...
Punifument
for
. thJfe and
other
my ungodly
Practices. ·
23.
I had no fooner thus conceived in
n1y
Mind, but fHddenly this c6nclnfion was faft- ·
n~d
on
my
Spirit
{for the former hint did fet
my
fins
again
before
my
Face)
That
I
hadbeen
agreat and grievous finnen, and that
it
was now
I
too late
for
me to look after Heaven
;
for Chrift
wouldnot forgive me,nor
par~on ~yTrangreJ!io'!s.
Then 1fell to mufing upon
th1s
alfo ;
&
w
htle
I was
thinking
of
it,and fearing
leaft
it
fhould
b~fo,.
I felt
my
Heart fink
iri
Defpair,cpnclu–
dtng
It
was
too late; and
therefore
I refol
ved
in
tny
Mind, I would goon in fin:For, thoght
I, if the Cafe
be
thus,
my
State is furely mife–
rable.;_miferable if
I'
leave
my
Sins, and but
mifera·bieifl
follow
thetn: I
can>
but be
dam;..
ned, and
if
it
muft be fo,
I
had as good be
~amned
'lllY
many
Sins,ai
be damned for ·few..
-.l4;
f~us
I
~~od
in
the
midtt
Qf
my
~Pl\lf,
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