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·to
.
Grace
a!J~nding
before all that then were prefent; but yet I
told
them nothing: But,
I
fay,I
having made
this
conclufion,
I
returned defperately
to
my
fport
again; and
I
well remember,
that pre–
fently this
kind of
Defpair did
fo
poffefs
my
Soul, that I
was
per{waded, I could never
at·
tain to
other Comfort than what I
fh_ould
get·
in
fin; for Heaven was gone already, fo that
on that I
rn_uft
not
thin.k : Wherefore I found
within me
a
great defire to take
my
fill of fin,
frill ftudying
what
fin
was yet
to
be comn1it–
ted, that I n1ight tafte the fweetnefs of
it ;
and I made as much bafte as I could to fill
my
Belly with
its
Delicates,leaft I fhould
dye
. before I had
my
Defire ; for that I feared
greatly.In thefe
things,Iproteft
before God,!
lye
not,
neither
1
do I
feign this · form of Speech;
thefe were really, frrongly, and with all
my
heart,
my
de
fires :
The good IJord,wlaofe MercJ
is unfearchable, forgive
rne
my
Trttn[gre[{ions..
25..
And I
am
very
confident,that
this
Temp~
tation
of the Devil is more
ufual
among poor
Creatures than many are aware of, even to
over-run the Spirits \vith a fcurfy and feared
frame ofHeartand benumbing ofConfcience;
which Fran1e he ftillyaud
fiily
fupplieth
with
fuch defpair, that though
not
much
guilt at•
tendeth Souls, yet they
continually ~have
a fe..
cret conclufion within them, that there is no
hopes for
them;
for they
ha~e
loved Sins,there-.
1
fore after
thern
they will
uo,]er.2.25.
and
18.
1
2.·
· 26.
Now therefore
6
I
went
on
in
fin
with
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