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to
the CIJief
of Sinners.
9$
not
\1_
ithout exceeding conflicts, for the
fpace).
of feven or
eignt
vve~Ks
; for
tny
peace
~ould
be in
it,
and
out,
foLneti11es
twenty
tll11t'S
a .
~
' day; con1fort now, and trouble prefently;
peace now
,3
nd before I
could
go
a furlong,as
full
of fear
and guilt
as ever
heu
rt cou
Id
hold : ..
And this
was not
only
now
and'
th~n,but
n1y
whole feven weeks
experience;for
ihi1
about
.. thefof!iciency.ofGracc,and
that
of
t.jau'.i ·pJr..
ting with his Birth- right, would be like a
pair of Scales
within
n1y
Mind ; fometin1es
one end would be uppern1ofE,and
fon1etimes ,
ag;1in
the·other;
according
to
which,
~ould
be
my
Peace or
trouble.
·
.
.
207.
Therefore
I ftill did
pray
to
GQd,that
he
would
coo1e
in.
w··ith
thi~
Scripture
n1ore .~
fully
on
1ny
Hear.t;
te
wit,that
be
wotrld
help
n1e to
apply
the
\Vhole Sentence,
for as
yet
r{ .
t
·· could ·not: That he
gave,thJt
I gather'
cl;
but
further
I could not go, for as
yet
it
only hel–
ped me · to hope there might be
f.t1ercy
for·:
·,
me ;
My
Grace ·
jJ
fufficient
:
~'nd
though ,
it.
. catne no further,tt
anfwered
my
fanner
gue ...
ftion; to wit,
that
there
was hope ;
yet,
be–
caufe
for thee,
was left
out,
.I
was not conten–
ted, but prayed to God.for that
alfo.
Vv'here-
fore,
one day,as I was
in
a
Meeting
Df
Gods
~eople,
!ull of
Sadnefs
and
Terrour,
for
tny'i
tears
agatn
~ere
fl:rong upon me; and as
I
was now
thinking,
my Soul \-\'as
nev_e; the ·
oetter,buf
my
cafe
lllOft
fad and fearful·
t.he.fe
wvrds did with
grtat
power fuddjinly
break~·
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