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to the
Chief
of Sinners.
·
9-3
thy Faith.]Mat.
t
5.28.
even as if
one
had
clap–
ped me on the b2ck, as I
,was
on
tny
I~nees b~·
fore
God : Yet I \V'as
not
able
to
believe this,
that this \vas a
prayer
of faith, till alrnoft
iix·.
months after ;
for I
could
not think
that
I had
faith,
or that there
fhould
be a
word
for-me
to
aB: faith
on ;
therefore
I
fhould ftill
~e,
as
!ticking
in
the jaws of
de~peratio r ,
and
~ent
n1ourning up and
down,
In,
a
fad condition..
203.There
was
not1ling now
that
I longed.
fot· ·more,then to be
put
out of
doubt,
as
to
this ,thingin ·quefl:ion,and
as I wa$
veheinent·
1
y
defiring to know
if
there
was indeed hopes
for
me,
t.hefe
v~·ords
came
rolling
into
my
.n1ind,Wi/l
the Lord cajF
off for
ever?
11nd
rvill
be
favo.ftrable no
tnore
?.
Is his
mercy
clean gone
for ever?
Dorh
his promife fail for evermtJre?
Hath God
forgotten
to
be
gracious? Hath he
in
Anger
fhrd
up his
tender
mercies?
Pfal.
77·
7,
8,
9·
And all the
while
they
run in
my
rnind,
rne-
thought,I
had this frill as
th~ a~fwer~
Tir
a 9.J!eftion
iVhether
he had, or no
;
it
rnay
Ire,
he
·
h!!.th
not.Yea,the ·'interrogatory
fee.11ed to
tne,
to
carry in
it
a
fur,e
<1ffirn1ation
that indeed he
l1ad not,nor
wonld
fo caft off,
but'
would
be
·
favourable.,thae
l2is promife'·qothnot
fi:I,and
that
he.bad
no~
torgottcn
to
be
grac~ous,
nor
w?uld-ln anger
fl1ut1.1
p
tender
mercy
:Some... ..
~!Hng al~>
there was
upon
my
heart at the fame
t1me,wh1ch
I
cannot
no\v
cal1
to
n1.ind·which
with
this
T'ext,
di'u
f
wee
ten
my
hea~t
and
make me conclude, that his
n1ercy
1nigl~t
not
·
E
2
,
·
.
be