131 / 186
to jhe Cl;ief
of
Sirzners.
ra.l
\Vas I got on , high) I fa
w
n1y
felf
within
the
Arn1s of
Gra~e
and
Mercy,
and though I
vt~as b~fo r e
afr.aid
to think of
·:t
dying
hour,
yet
now I
cried,
L tt me die
:Now
de~th
was
lovely
and /beautiful
in 1ny
fight,
for
I
G
,.v
we
.{hall
never
live
indeed till
fl1·e
be gone
tl)
the
(lthcr
~Vorld.
0, me thought this Life is but
a f1un1 ber, in
cotnparifon
of
that
above;
at
this
time
alfo I
fa'N
tT1o.rc
in thefe
words,
.
J-leirs of
God.
(Rom•.
3.
I
7.)
then e'ver I Jball –
be able to exorefs \-vhile I live in this World;
-
i
-'
•
Heirs of God!
God hiinfelf is
the
Portion
of
the Saints. This I· fa\v and wondered
at ·.
but cannot tell
you
what
1
1 faw.
.
.
26
r.
Again, as I
was
at a
r~other
time very
ill and weak,all that time alfo the Tempter
did befet me frrongl
y
(for
l
·
find
he is
tnuch
~
for affaulting
the Soul,
when
it
begins to
ap-–
proach
tovvards
the Grave? then is his -Op–
portunity)
labouring
to hide from
me
my ·
former
experience
of Gods Goodnefs: Alfo
fetting
before
me the
terrors
of
Death,
and .
t~1e
· Judgment
of
God, infomuch, ·that
at
this
time-
through
my
fe~r
of ;
n1ifcarrying .·
for e'ler (fhould I now
die)
1was
as
one
dead
before Death cam·e, and was as
if
I
had felt -
n1y felf
already defcending
into the Pit; me..
thought, .I
iaid,
there were no
way
but
to -
Hell I tnufi:
~
but
behold,
ju·fi:
as I was
in
the .;
tnidft
of
thofe
fears,
thefe
words
of , the
An- ,.
·gels
carrying
L~z..arus
into
AbrahllnJS
Bofom, ..
darted in
~pon
m.e, as who
ibo.:u_ld
fay,
So
it
.·
F
.4 :
,
Jh!ll~.