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ttJ
the
_Chief
of
Sinners.
1-19
~nd
have, I truft,therein
difcerned the
Lords–
Body
as broken
for
my
ftns,and .. that
his .
precious. blood
hath.bee.u.lhed;for·
my.~'Pvran,.,.
greffions-.
.
..
• • • .
256.
ll·."'on a ttme I was
famewh~t
tnth- –
ning to a
Cctnfumption,wherewith about
the ·
Spring I
wai
fuddenly and violently
fei~ed.,
with much weaknefs in
n1y
outward -Man: ..
lnfomuch
that
~
thought
I·
could not
live•
. Now I began a ;.refh
to
give tny. felf up to a .
feri0us
exarnination after·
my
ftate
·and
con- .
dition
f0r
the fut_ure;and
of
my
evidences
for ·
that Bleffed
World: to
C.Oine:
for
it hath;
I'
blefs
t
he:nan1e of
God,
bee
a
n1y
ufual
courfe,
as always,fo efpedally.
in.
the
day
of
afflicti–
on, to end·eavour
to .ke·ep
my
intere~
in Life ·
to
comt?; . clear
before
rr1ine
Eye.
2)7.Butl
had
no.fooner
began to
recal
to '·
mind
my
forn1er
Ex p,;:·
iep.ce, of
the good;
nefs
'of
God to
rr; ·)
~ t~ L;
but there
came '
flocking
into
n1y
n1i.
;;.:<1.,
r n innutnerable com–
pany
of
mv
Si:1s a
nu
Tr~nfg:e ffions,amonr:Jl:
which thefe
\V eT c
at tbL
rime
mofr
to
n1y
afRiCtion,
natnely
n1y
deadnefs, dulnefs
and,
coldnefs
in holy Duties_;nly
we1ndrings
of ·
heart,ofmy \.
11
leariComnefs
in all good
things,
n1y
want
of lovt: to God, his
way
and Peo .
ple,
with
this at the.end of all,
Are theft the
Fruits
~f
Chriflianity
?
Are thefo
tht
To,~ens of~ ·
a ble/ferl
Ma11.
· '
·
258. At the apprehenfions o(thefe
thing~.;
-
my
11cknefs was.
dduble~
upon .me,
fJr
no\/1 -'
f
3
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