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race a o
tng,
I
36.Sotne\imes
it
v¥ould run in
my
thoughts;
not fo ]
it
tie as a hundred times together,
Sell
him, [ell
fJi m.,
_{ell him:
againft
w
hi
eh, I
n1ay
fay.,
fo r whole I-Iours together,
I have been
forced to !land as continually leaning -and
for ..
cing
n1y
Spirit againft
it,
left ha
ply,
before
I
\V
ere aware, fotne
rvicked thought
1night
a
rife
in
my
heart,
that
I
might
confent
thereto:
and
-fon1etimes
alfo the Tempter
would
1nake me
believe I had
co~fented
to
it,
but then ·fhould
I be as tortured
upon
a
Rack for v.;hole
Days
together.
r
37·
This
Teri1ptati0n
did put me to
fuch
fcares)left I fr'lould, at
fon1e
tin1es,I fay
confent
thereto, and -be
overcon1e
t r,erewith, that
by
very
force of
n1y
1nind,in b
bouring
to
gainfay
and refift this
Wickednefs,
1ny
very
body
would be put into Action,or
n1otion,
by
way
of pufhing or thrufting
\Vith
tny
bands or el–
bows ; fiill anfwering, as fa.ft as the
D~/lroyer
faid,
fell hhn,:
I
will
not,
I
will
not, I
tvill
NOt~
I
rPi!l not
,
no,
not
for thoufands,
thoufands, thou–
{:tnds ofWcqfds:
1....h
us
reckoning,lell I fhould,
in the rnidfi: of t-hefe afEH1lts,fet too low a va..
lue on
hin1 ,
even. until
-I
ft~arce
well
knew
where
i
was or hovv- to be con1oofed again.
!
'-"
r 38. At thefe fcafons
be
would not let me
'at n1y ·food at quiet ; but, forfooth, \Yhen 1
was fet at
the
Table at
n1y
fvleat,
I muft 'go
heoce
to
pray; I mufr
leave
n-1y food now,
jn
ft
no~x:.;
fo cou ntet;fei
t
holy alfo \Vould this .
Devil
be.~~:
vVhct1
I
vvas
thus
tctnpted,l
fi1ould
.;::·
fay