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fay
in
n1y
felf,
Now I
am
;-tt
J~{r,pf _,
let
me
rnaN.e
an end. No,
fJid he,
)
1
0U rnN/f
do h
f'J ont., or
yoH
wilt difple.afe God,
lind
defpife Chrijl
Wherefore
I
was
much
afflicted
\Vith
thcfe things ., and
becaure of the
finfulnefs
of
my
pature
(ima–
gining that
thefe
things were
ilnpulfes
from
God )I fhould
deny
to do
it,
as
if
I deniedGod;
and then fhould_I ·be as
guilty
becaufe
I did
not obey a
Tetnptation of
the Devil, as ifl
had broken the Law of
Ged h1deed.
1
39·
·· But
to
be brief,
one
Morning
as
I
did
lre
in
my
Bed,
I was . as
at other times, moft
fiercely
a!faulted with thisTemptation,
to
felt,
and part with Chrift;
the \Vicked fuggeftion
frill
running in
my
Mind,
5e0 hirn,
{c.!t
him, fell
him, fell
him,
fell hitn,
as faft as -a
man could
f
peak:
Againfi:
\V
hieh alfo, in
my
mind, as' at
other times, .I
an(wered
No, no, not for
thou~
ands,thoufands,thoufands,
at
leaft twenty tin1es
together:
But
at lafr, after
fuch ftriving,even
11ntil
I was almoft
out
of breath,
I
'felt
this
thonght pafs th_ro'
n1y
heart,
Let hint go
if
he
will;
and I
thought alfo
that l felt
my'
heart
freely
confent
thereto.
Oh, the
diligence
of
Satan
!
Oh, the defperatenefs of
Ma-n'-she~rt!
··
p
r
40.
Novv was the
Battle
won,
and
do\Vn.
fell I, as a Bird that
is fi1ot
fr.on1
the top of
a
Tree,
into
great .guilt and
fearful
defpair.
Thus getting out of
my
Bed, I went rnopeing
into
the
Field:, but,God knows,with as heavy
an h_eart as
mortal
ntan,
I think could
bear,
where for
the,fpace
of
two
hours
1
I was like
a
n1an