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to the Chi(f of
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. 1
54 .
Aft~r
this, I
can1.e
to
c?nfider .-of
P~:
~er's_
fin, .wh1ch
~e commltt~d
In
de~y1ng
Ius
Ma.Iter.:
And,
tndeed,
th
ts
came
ntgheft
to
Hline of
any
that I
could·
find,
for he
had
den
i~d
his Saviour,
as
I, after light and
mer–
cy
received ;
yea,
and that too, after
wa:ni~g
givea him.
I alfo
confidered, that he
d1d
It
both
once and twice ; and that after time
to
confider betwixt. But
tho'
I
put
all
tbefe cir–
cumftances together,that,
if
poffible, I
1night
find help,
yet
I
confidered again,that his was
but
a Je;q.ial of
his M
after,
but
mine was
A ·
felling of
my
Saviour.
Wherefore I thought
with
my
felf, that
1
came nearer to
Judas,
then
either
to
Da~id
or
Peter.
I
56.
[--Jere again
lTIY torment.WOO}d
flame - ·
ont
and afflitl:
me;
yea,
it
would
grind
me,
as it were
to powder.,
to confider the prefer-
,_\vation of God
towards others, whilelfell in–
to
the
Snare; for in
my
thus
confidering of
other men's
Sins,
and
-c<H11paring
of them
with
mine own,
I
could evidcQtly
fee,
God
jn~~fervcd
them ,
notwithftanding
their
· \''lckednefs,
and would not
let theru,
as he
had let rne becon1e a
Son
of
Perdition.
I
57 .But Ohjhow did
my
Soul
a~
this
time
prize the Prefervation that God did fet-about
his People:
-~b;
how fafely did
I
fee then1
w~lk.,wh?m
God had
hedg~d
in! ·
They
were
· wtth1n
h1~
care,proted:ion
qnd
f})ecial
provi–
dence.:
The'
they were fuH as bad as
I,
'by ,
nature ;
yet
becaufe he loved t.hen1, Le
wotild
D
·n{)t