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Grace abou»rliniJ'
.
0
.
. this
Tempta;iCJo,
I fhoul d
find
my
fv1ind
fud ..
denly
put
upon
it,
to cnr fC)lb a
fwear,
or
to
.:::fpcak
feme
grievous thing
or:God,
or
Chriit
:his Son, and of
the
Stri ptures·. . , · ·.
1
o
I .
~ow
I
thought,
flsrely
I
tnn
j~tj}./Jed
of
'the
Devil:
At
other tinJcs
again,
1 t hought I
fuould -be bereft of
n1y
\A/its;
for
infle;·d
of
>lauding
&
magnifying of
God
the Lord
with
others,
if
I
have
but-
heard
hhn
fpoken
of
.pre(ently fome n1oft
horrible
blafphemou~
thought or other
\Vould
bol t cu t of
n1y
heart
again11
him:
So that whet her I did
think
that
,God .was, or again did think
there was no
fuch thing ;
no
love,nor
peace,nor
gracious
Difpofition coul d I feel within me.
1 o2.
Thefe things
did
fink me
into
very
deep
Defpair ;
for
I concluded,
that
fuch
things could
not
poffipl
y
'be
found
arnongfr
them
that
loved God.
I often,
when thefe
~emptations
have been with force
npon me,
did
c_on1pare
my
fel f to
the Cafe
of
fuch
a
Child,
who1n fome
G_rpfe
bath
by
force
took
tlp in
rler
ar ft1S, and is
carry
in ?, fron1
Friend
and Country: Kick fomet imes I did, and alfo
fhriek and
cry ;
but
yf t
I was
bound in the
Wings of the
1~
en1ptatron .,
and
the \Vind
V\rould
carry
n1e
avvay .. 1
thought
alio
of
Stml,
and of the evil
Spi t
it
that
did
pc-ff~fs
him;
and did
greatly
fear, _t hat
my
condition
was
tbe ·fame \\'it.b
that of
h i s~
I
S:1m.
1
6.
1
4·
,
1
o3.
In
thefe
days,
when
I .
have
heard o-
ther~
ta\k of
'Nhat
\~~?as tl~ c
Sin again.ft the
Jfo·