57 / 186
to
the Cbiej·
of Sinners:
·47·
Cloath.s:
Be would be alfo continualiy at
n1e ··
·in
tin1e
of
Prayer,
to
have
done,
break
ofi~ make
hafte,
and
have
prayed
enough,
and
flay
no
longer; frill
drawing
i~y
Mind
~way
..
·somethnes
alfo
he would
caft
10
foch
wicked
thoughts as thefe; that I
m~- ft p~ay:
to
hitn,or ·
for him: I have thought
iotneumes
of that,.
Fall down.,
or.,
If
thou
rv£/t
j
all dorvn and
mor-
•
p1ip
me·, .,
Matt.
2.
9·
.
1
o8. Alfo, \vhen becaufe.I have had
wan ~
cering 17houghts
in
the
tin1e
of this .Duty,
£.–
have laboured to
compofe
my.\Mind
and fix
it·:
11pon
God; then, with
~reat
force hath
the
'Iempter labour.ed to d!Itracr and co!lfound
me, ; and to turn
away 1nv
rviind ,
by
pr~- .
,
fenting
to
·n1y
Heart
and Fancy,
the Fonn·
of ·
a
Bull,aBuih,a- l}eforn~or
the like, as
if
I
·fhould
pray.
to thefe. To thefe alfo
h~
would
(at
forne
times
efpecially)
fo
held
n1
y
1\:1ind,
that I \v.as .
as
if
~ould
think of nothing elfe ,
or
pray
t@'..
notl
g elfe but to there, or fuch as they.
109..Yet at times
I fhould ,. have
fon1e ftrong
and heart-affecting
apprehenfionsofGod,
and.
the
reality
of
the
Truth
ot
this
Goi~tJel~
But,
Oh! how would
my
heart at fuch
tin1es
put · -
forth
it felf with
inexpreflible Groanings!L\1
y
.whole Soul
was then in every\JVord
~I
Ihould .
cry
\-~i_t h
pangs after
God,
that
he would
be ·
n1erc1 tulunto
n1e: But then I
rn0uld
be
daunt- .
ed
again with fuch
conceits
as
thefe;
I fhould ;_ ,
tl1ink that God
did
mock
Jt
thete
n1y
Pray.~ ers;
faying, .
and that in the audience of
the .·
C
3~~-
..
,holy!.