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.
to
the
Chief
of
S,inners~
·45·
ly:
Ghoft,
then
~yould
the
!empter
fo
prqv~ke
n1e
to
d.efire
to
fin
that
Stn,
that I
wa s~.as
1f
I
cou1Gl not,
tnilft
not,
neither
fuould
be
quiet
until
I
had cornn1itted
it :
Now, no Sin
would -
ferve
but
that:
if
it were
to
~e
committed
by
fpeaking
of
fuch
a
Word,
t hen
Ithave
been as
if
my
l\1outh would have fpoken that Word
whether
I
would
or
no.
And
in fo ftrong a
-Meafure
\Vas this
Tetnptation upon'n1e, that ··
often I have been ready to clap
my
Hand un–
der
rny
Chin,
to
hold
my
Mouth from
open–
ing ; and
to
that end alfo I
have
had thoughts
at other
times,
to leap
with
my
Head do·wn–
ward into
fome
Muck-hill-hole
pr
other,
to
keep my 'l\1outh
from
fpeaking.
· .
1
o4..
No~w
again I beheld the condition
of
the
Dog
and
Toad,and
counted theeftate of
eve–
ry
·thing that God had made, far
bett~r
than
thh dreadful ftate of mine, and fuch as
my
Companions was: Yea,
gladly
would I
have
been
in
the condition of a Dog or
I-Jorfe,
for
I knevv they had no Soul to perifh under the
everlafiing
W.
eight ,of
fleU, or
Sin,
as
mine
was like to do.
Nay,
and tho' I faw
this,
felt
this, and was broken to pieces with
it,
ye t
that which added to
my
Sorrow was, tha t I
could not find, that y.,\ith all
Iny
Soul I
did
d-e–
fi re deliverance. That Scripture
alfodid
tear/
· and rend
my
Soul, in the n1id11 of
thefe
Di-...
frra ttions,
The Wicked n,re like the
t r oublea
s~lt
n
1
hich cannot
rtff
,
whoft
'f/Ji'atcrs
r~ft
up-
Mt'r;
~
and Dirt: .There is
no
cace .to th.c
Wickea
1
faitb