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tht
Chief
of
Sb1»trs~
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98.
Sometimes
I have
endeavoured
to
ar–
gue
againft thefe
Suggeftions, anGI
~o
fet fome
of the
Seiltences
ot
ble.lfed
P
aut
agatnft
them :
·but,alas! I quickly felt, when thus I did,
fu~ll
arguings as
thefe would
quickly
return
again
npon
me;
Though we made,
fo
great
tt
matter of –
Paul,
and ofhis Words,
yet
how coftld I tell but
that, in very deed, he being aJubtlc and .cunni.ng
Man, might give himfeif up to deceive
with
flrong Delufions,
and
a/fo
to take the Pains and
Travel.,
t_oundo and
deflroy
his
Fellows• .
99·
Thefe
Suggeftions
(\V
ith
many
other ·
\\ hich at this time I
1nay
not , nor dare not
utter , neither"
by
\Vord nor
Pen) ·did n1 ake
fuch a
feizu.re upon
tny
fpirit,and
did
fo
over–
weigh
my
heart,both
with
their nuinber')cou–
tinuan8e,
~nd
fiery
force,
that I felt as
if
there
\Vere
nothing
elfe
but
thefe
fr~rn
l110rning tO
night
\V
ithin
me ,
and
as
tho'
indeed
there
could be. roorn for
not"hing
elfe, and
alfo
con–
clud-ed, .that God had,
in very
'Wrath to
my
Soul,given
n1e 11p-to
thern,~o
be
carried
away
with them, as with
a
tnighty
V\
7
hirlwind.
'
I
oo.
Only
by
the diftafte
that
they
gave
unto
my
Spirit,
I felt
there
WtU
fomethincr
in me
that
rrfttfed
to
embrace
them.
But this cgnfide–
ration
I
then
only
had, when God gave me
leave
to
fwallow
ri1y
Spittle; other'A\'ife the
noi_fe, and
ftrength,and
fo~· ce
of thefe
Temp·
~at1ons
would drown and
·overflotv,
and, as
It
wcre,bury all fuch thoughts, or
the
rcn1Ci11-
brance of
any
fuch
thing.
\Vhile I
·
·c