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Grace
A!Jou11ding
feeki
ng rather
prefent eafe
from their
tro'ltb!e;
than
pardon
for
their
fin,
cared not
how
they loft their guilt, ·fo
they
got
it
ont
of
their
mind :
No\v
having
got
it
off
the
wrong
w~y,
it
V\ras
not fanetified unto them
but they gre\v
harder,
and
biinder,
and
n1ore
wicked
afte'r their
trouble,
This
made tne
a..
fraid,
and made tne
cry
to
God
the
tnore,
that
it
n1ight not
be
fo
with me.
,
·
88. And
now
I \\
1
as
forry
that'
God had
made
me
a
mnn,
fo r
I
feared I was:a Repro–
bate:
I counted
man,
as
·unconverted, the
moft
doleful
0f
aH
the·
Creatures. Thus
be–
ing
afflicted
and
tolfed about
my::
fad
condi·
tion,
I
counted
my
felf
alone, and .
above
the
mofr of
men,
unbleffed.
~9·
'Yea,
I
thought
it
impoffible
that
ever
I
i
fhould attain to fo 1nuch goodnefs of
heart,
astt
to thank
God
that
he
had
made
me a
man.~'
Man,
i
odeed, is
~he
mofr noble
by
Creation,1
of all
creatures
in the
vifible World; but
b~
fin
he
had
made-
himfelf the
moff:
ignoblea
·· The
~~afi:s,
birds,
fifhes,
&c.
I bleffed
thei~~
·
condition ; for
they·
had not a finful
natur~w
they
were
not
obnoxious
tothe wrath
of
God~~
~hey
were not to go to
Hell-fire
after
death;·
I
~ouJd
therefore have
rejoyced', had-my con..J
diti_on been as any of theirs.
·
t
.
9~
..
In
this condition I went
a
great
while·;<
bus
whe~n-et>nl~orting
titne
was corne, I
h~_ard :
one
preach a
Sermon
upon
thefe
words
in~~e
SonfT,, (Son.t
4·
1.)
Bekold thoJfart
[at-·r,
my
Love ~
~
OJ
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be
oidl
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