82 / 186
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7~
Grace
abounding
l?e found no place of Repentance,though
hc.~ught
tt
c:arefit!~y
with Tears.
.
164.
'"fben fho uld I be ftruck
in
to a
very
great tre:nbli11g, -infon1uch tl1at at
fometimes
I could, for
whole .dtt)'J together,
feel
n1y
very
Body,
as
\V
ell as
nJy
!Hind,
to !hake and totter
under the fenfe of the dread fu l judgn1ent of
Gt>d,that Ihould fafl on thofe that have
finned
that moft fearful and unpardonable Sin. I
felt
alfo
fuch ·a clogging
atld
heat at
rny
Storpach,
QY
reafon
of
this
my
~ferror,
that
1was,cfpe–
ciatl
y
at fo1neti 111 es, as
if
n1
y
breaft .. bone
\Vould have
fplit
afunder: then I thought of
that
concerning
Jud~1s,
who
by
his f?dlint
head·
Jonc:.e;
burjl
a[under, ~1!i
his
b '~ wels
gufhed
out,Acr
.l.
16) ..
I feared alfo that this was the mark
that the .
L0rd
did fet
.,-tJ
Cain,
even
continual
Fear
and
Trembling
unci
er the
hea·~y
lead of
Guilt
that
he hac! charged on
hinl
for
the
Elood of his
Brothe r
Abel.
This did
I
wind
and
twine, and
finink under the Burthen that
· was upon
m~:
vVhich Burthea, alfo did fo
· opprefs
me, that I could
neither
ftand,
11or
go, nor
lie~
either at reft or quiet,
1
66.Y-et that
faying
would fon1etimes come
to n1ind,E-Je
hath received
gifts
.for
the
rehellioUJ,
Pfal68.
18.
The rebellious,
thought
I ;
Why,
, furely
they are fuch as once were nnder fub-
jeB:ion to their
Prir~ce
:
~ven ~hofe·
wh?.,after
they have fworn
fubJecho~
to
h~sGoYernme~t,
have taken up Arms
aga1nft him ; .and
this,
thought I, is
my
very
Condition ·: once
11oyed