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to
t!Je
Chief of· Sinners.
7
t ·..
n1eans .
to keep the Soul
from
Chrift ; .he Io..
7eth
n~t ~n·
avvakened
frarne
ofSpirit;
fecuri–
ty
,blindnefs,darki1efs
and
erro~
4
'
i.s
the very .
·kingdon1·
and' habitation of.the
\V1cked
One.
.,
163.
I found
it
hard \Vork
110\V
to
pray
to
G-od, _becaufe defpair
~as fw~llowing n~~
up,
I thought
I
\¥as,. as
With
a 1 ernpefrl
~n_ven
avvcry fro·m·God ; for
alwaJS
when I cned
to
God for
n1.:;rcy,-
this \Vould come
in,
'Tis tco
/ate
;
1
arrJ
loft, G
"~,t
hatjJ let
me
fit!!,
not to
rJ!Y
.
correffion,
b;tt
conde1nnat'i{ln
;
My
fin
is
unpar–
drJnable,
and
-1 know .concerning.
Efau,
horv that
after he had fold his
Bir-th-rixh
t,
he would
have
receiv2d
the
b(effing,b~ttrvas
rejeCled.
About
this
tiine
I
did
light
on
that
dreadfnl1tory of
that
miferable mortal
Francis -5pira:
l\.
~ook
that' ·
j
was to my troubled
Spirit,
as·falt,
Vllhen
rub–
bed into a frefh vVoL1nd ;
every
fentence
in -·
that Book,
every
_groan of
that
l\1an,
with all
the
r-efr
of
his a<frions in his dolours, as his .
tears,his prayers, his gnafhing of teeth, his
wring.in~
of
hands,
~i~
twining and tv;ifting,
,
Ianguifh1ng,
'lnd
pining
away
under
that
·. mighty
hand of
God
that was
upon
him,
was
as Knives and DJggers
in
1ny
Soul;efpecially
that
fentence
of
his was
frightful
to me,
Ma~
knows the begining o_f fin, but who
'bounds the
lf{ttes
thereof?
·rh
en would the forn1er
fen-
-
)
tence, as the Conclufion of all,
fallli~~e
an
hot .
thunder-bolt
again upon
n1y
Confcience:
for.
you
know how that
afterwards., .when he
would.·
-
I:Ja·ve'
it~herited
the
bleffing.,
he
rvas
reje[fcd:
fa~·- ··
'
D
3
I
.